Okay so before we start I hope you read Info because I'm not putting warnings here.
Let's begin then, I was 4 years old (I think idk it's been 11 years now) and I was supposed to be sleeping but instead I was playing around, I saw my mom sitting by the apartment door, and rushed back to my room.
I waited a few minutes and then went back out still seeing my mom their surprised she hadn't said anything, my 4 year old self thought that ment she didn't see me. So I decided to get really close and peek at her phone, and then she hit me.
I started crying harshly especially because this was the first time I was ever hit, I was hit in my left elbow. I had cried myself to sleep the first time in my life. Now a bit of a time skip, I'm 6 now and I'm playing with my cousin, and her cousin who was 2 at the time? I'm not sure.
But my cousin was 5. We were organizing a box of her toys for some reason, and her cousin would move one certain toy that was fixed properly. So I have to fix it every time.
And I got tired of it so when she tried to do it again I had grabbed her arm and lightly pulled it away. And my Aunt was watching, she had came up and told me to get up and sit on the table, meaning I was in time out.
I started crying thinking that she hated me or something because I didn't do anything to deserve the punishment. I'm pretty sure she noticed me crying so after I calmed down she had taken me out of time out.
Okay now another time skip I'm 8-9 at this time so basically I was in the middle of fifth grade and had come home. My mom had went through my phone and saw text messages of the class clown "bullying me." Although he was just making jokes, of course I had told him to stop and he didn't so I had just ignored him, not thinking it was a big deal. But my mom thought it was.
So she said it was my fault for being friends with him and he still "bullied me" and then she ask me "why is he bullying you" and I said I don't know, and instead of asking me why I think he bullied me, she just fucking hits me with a belt. And of course I have a panic attack, and then she said my phone would be taken away until I was 13.
Now another time skip I'm 10-11 and about to go on vacation to Florida. And I'm the type who doesn't go to bed even if a bed time is set. So I had my iPad on my bed under my pillow. (istg if someone calls me an iPad kid)
But it had dropped in the morning and the screen was cracked. Like completely shattered. To the point some prices of the screen came out, but lucky me it still worked.
So my mom was packing some extra stuff sense we were going to the airport. She yelled at me for some reason I forgot and told me to sit down at my dresser. I had a panic attack. After a bit I calmed down.
She had left to do something for 15 minutes and told my sister to take care of me. And I decided to use my iPad although I was grounded. After a bit I put it back down.
When she came back my sister told her I went on my iPad for a bit because she didn't know I wasn't supposed to be on it so she thought it was okay. So then my mom hits me, and is taking the iPad away and then she notices the cracked screen and hits me more.
More panic attack, balling my eyes out until we get to the airport and pretends nothing happened. Now one last time skip I'm 12-13 now and I'm on my phone I finally got back. My mom comes in yells at me for a reason I forgot and makes me stand up near my dresser. She then slams the back of my head into the corner of the dresser and I start letting some tears out that I was holding in.
She asked me if I was okay, and then when I said yes she kept yelling at me. When she left I had a panic attack.
Also for my past 6 birthdays she's hit me. Thankfully not the one 3 days ago.
But that's all for my backstory, hopefully this helps understand the other vents I will put in this book.
Thank you for reading!
Side note: I might do a Q & A at the end of the book for people wondering about my trauma.
