~Just saying~

Chapter 1

Back to school party

Brendon walked into the party with his best friend Spencer, both of them were dreading back to school. It was a new year and why not kick it off by going to the best party in town. Jon was known for his giant parties and all the alcohol.
"Spencer I can't believe you got me to come to this.." Brendon rolled his eyes as Spencer and Brendon got out Spencer's car. "We'll both get some good sex!!" Spencer chuckled hitting Brendon's shoulder. Brendon rolled his eyes and they walked into the house party. They were both greeted instantly by Jon who was already drunk and had the smell of booze on him.
"SO GLAD YOU GUYS MADE ITTTTTT!" Jon practically yelled at them. Spencer smiled and slung his arm over Jon's shoulder and they walked away leaving Brendon alone. Brendon sighed and walked more into the house finding the booze. A few girls walked up to Brendon and giggled at his tight black jeans, but Brendon didn't seem to care. A few minutes later Brendon starts slamming drinks down and runs into a boy. A tall boy too, he had brown hair that was  not to long but perfect, big brown eyes and on top of all that he was wearing a Beatles shirt. Brendon smiled at this boy. "Sorry man!" Brendon yelled over the loud music. The boy smiled back at Brendon "All good!" Brendon found himself getting weird feelings that he's never felt before. "Are you new? I don't think I've ever seen you!" Brendon asked the boy. "Yeah! My name is Ryan! Ryan Ross." Ryan spoke over the loud music. Brendon reached his hand out for him to shake. "Well nice to meet you Ryan! I'm Brendon.." Brendon smiled as Ryan touched his hand. Ryan's hands were soft and gentle, not that Brendon was thinking about that...
"Do I not get. Your full name?!" Ryan laughed as he still held onto Brendon's hand. Brendon got embarrassed and turned red but the lights were to dimmed for anyone to notice. "Oh sorry! Urie..Brendon Urie." He smiled at Ryan secretly enjoying this long handshake. Ryan smiled and finally let go of Brendon's hand. " well it's awesome to meet you Brendon." Ryan smiled before taking a drink of his mixture of god knows what. Just then Spencer came crashing on over with Jon.
"Brendonnnnnnn! Heyyyyyyy boiii!" Spencer yelled over the music.
"Are you drunk already!?" Brendon laughed putting his hands on his hips like a proud dad.
"Bruhhhhh whatttt no." Spencer laughed as he walked over towards Ryan.
Spencer pressed  his finger into Ryan's chest and laughed. " you and Brendon are sooooo cuteee." Spencer giggled making Jon laugh too.
Ryan looked at Brendon and smiled softly.
"We're pleasing the crowd I guess." Ryan laughed causing Brendon to chuckle too. Brendon pushed Spencer away and he found himself sitting on the stairs. Brendon rested his head on his knees trying to block out the strobing lights when he heard someone call his name.
"Hey Brendon you alright?"
Brendon looked up and saw Ryan standing over him practically.
"Oh yeah it's just really wild in here.." Brendon said trying not to sound like a pussy. Ryan sat down next to Brendon on the stairs. Their knees touching side by side. Brendon's cheeks grew hot, but why...why was Brendon feeling this way.
Ryan squeezed Brendon's knee "Welcome to parties Bren." Ryan smiled giving him a nickname. Brendon blushed and he instantly felt embarrassed.
"I-I yeah.." Brendon chuckled nervously infront of Ryan. Ryan smiled and let go of his knee taking another sip of his drink and looking around the crazy party.
"Here let's go somewhere less wild.." Ryan said standing up and walking up the stairs. Brendon followed and as they walked into rooms they walked in on some couples making out. Ryan just apologized and kept looking for a empty room until they found one.
"Ah perfect." Ryan smiled leading the way into the room and sitting on the bed. Brendon followed behind him and sat on the bed next to him. It was silent for a few seconds until Brendon broke the silence.
"So you're new huh?" Brendon asked fidgeting with his hand.
"Yeah I actually was born in summerlin."
Brendon smiled and took a sip of his drink.
"Oh nice! So you've been in Nevada for awhile." Brendon said looking at Ryan and gazing down at his grey skinny jeans.
Ryan didn't seem to notice but he nodded. "Yup guess I'm lucky." He said looking at Brendon.

You could feel the tension from a mile away between them. Ryan looked at Brendon in the eyes and smiled softly.
"U-uh so tell me about yourself.." Brendon s
Blurted out

"Well I'm 17 born in August..Im really boring..anddd I'm gay." Ryan said like it was nothing
Brendon's eyes got wide when he mentioned he was gay.
"O-oh nice." Brendon said biting his bottom lip slightly. Ryan could tell Brendon was nervous so he bumped his shoulder with his own. "Relax dude I'm not gonna try and blow you or something." Ryan joked
Brendon laughed "No I don't care.."
Ryan raised his eyebrow and Brendon instantly noticed what he said.
"I mean I don't care that you're gay! Not that I don't-...UM.." Brendon said embarrassed and covering his eyes.
Ryan laughed and placed his hand on Brendon's knee.
"It's fine Brendon! I don't care.."
Brendon felt that funny feeling again his cheeks grew hot and he felt his stomach turning..
"So...are you um gay too?" Ryan asked softly
Brendon's cheeks were flushed and if he wasn't to focused on Ryan I think he'd say he had a hard on.
"I-I um I'm -" Brendon got cut off by two girls walking in.
"Oh shit two gays." One girl giggled

Brendon shot up and looked down at Ryan awkwardly.
"I-I'm not gay.." Brendon blurted out.
Ryan looked upset but he didn't let it effect him to hard.
As the party went on Ryan and Brendon ventured down stairs and had more drinks Brendon found himself really drunk with Ryan. They made their way back to a room and Brendan jumped on to the bed and laid down laughing. Ryan joined him and Ryan was rubbing Brendon's back. Brendon got flustered and found himself getting turned on again.
"H-hey.." Brendon said turning around off his stomach to sit up and face ryan.
"Hey.." ryan smiled obviously blushing a bit too.
Just then Brendon leaned in and kissed ryan.
Their lips met and instantly locked. Ryan grabbed the back of Brendon's hair and ran his hand through his hair. 
In this moment everything felt right. Brendon has always kissed lots of girls but never thought of kissing a guy.
Brendon found himself palming Ryan through his skinny jeans and Ryan let out a low groan that sent shivers through Brendon's body.
Ryan pulled away to catch his breathe and they both say there breathing heavy.
Brendon looked at Ryan with shock.
"So you're gay ?" Ryan smiled drunkly
Brendon furrowed his eyebrows at the word gay.
"Gay? No I'm straight..." Brendon blurted out defensively. Ryan's face softened and he looked confused.
"B-but we just made out..." Ryan chuckled a little. Brendon ran his hand through his hair and shook his head. "N-no I'm straight I don't like guys like that..." Brendon said standing up off the bed. Ryan looked up at Brendon confused but he knew Brendon needed time to process these new feelings.
"Okay Bren.." Ryan smiled softly he was tired they both were and that's when Ryan decided to call it a night.
Brendon ran out of the room and found Spencer passed out on the downstairs couch.
"Wake up Spence! We gotta leave.." Brendon mumbled as he shook Spencer.
Spencer stirred awake and groaned loudly.
"My headddd.." spencer cried
Brendon helped him up and they walked back to Spencer's house where Brendon dropped him off. Brendon made his way to his house and the whole walk back he couldn't stop thinking about Ryan.
What the fuck is happening to him?!
He's not gay..why did he kiss Ryan..
Part of Brendon wanted to run back to Ryan and the other half knew that it wouldn't fix anything, so here Brendon was standing outside his house on a Saturday night drunk and alone.