To Be Or Not To Be | ✔

•Chapter 8•

TW: Mentions of self harm

Emily •

I'm being held by Atlas and Zack as they comfort me

Today has just been a horrible day and it got worse when I received a text message from a distant relative.

The text stated that my grandma had just passed away due to a heart attack and the funeral will be held in a few days. My grandma was my everything and she was all I had.

I don't know what to do, not only did I lose my grandma but I lost my source of income. I'll have to find a job and there's no way I'll find one before rent is due, there's a big chance that I'll be homeless and alone.

I know I probably shouldn't have contacted Atlas but he was the only one I could think to call giving I had no one else to call.

"I'm really sorry for everything. I shouldn't have called you." I whisper

Atlas pulls away before speaking "You have nothing to apologize for. Besides I'm thankful that you called me, I want nothing more than to help you."

I nod my head not wanting to drag along a conversation I'm not ready to have

"Would it make you feel better if we went back to my place? That way you don't have to stay here alone tonight." He says

I nod my head once again as they stand and help me get up.

We exit my home and make our way to the car, Atlas getting in the driver's seat and Zack getting in the back with me.

"Would you like to talk about it later?" Zack whispers softly

And I nod my head taking deep breaths trying my best not to start crying again

•••

We made it to Atlas's house a few minutes ago and all they've done since we got here have made me feel welcome and cared for.

I never thought I would just meet some random guys and get so close with them in such a small amount of time, but life has it's weird ways of doing things.

Zack walks up to me reaching his hands out for me to take, I take them and he pulls me up leading me over to the bathroom

"W-what are you doing." I stutter out

"You'll see."

He lifts me up onto the counter by my waist and opens the cabinet placed on the wall opposite of the counter

He grabs a rag that looks as soft as a cloud, bandages, and hydrogen peroxide and sets the items down on the counter beside me

He grabs my hand and trys to softly turn my arm over before I quickly pull away, I don't want him to see my cuts

"I promise I won't judge you, I've had my fair share too. I just want to make sure they're taken care of. Okay?" He softly says

I slowly reach my arm out for him to take and he exams my wrists before softly releasing them and grabbing the rag and hydrogen peroxide and pours it onto the rag.

After coating the rag in the liquid he looks at me before continuing "Before I do anything else, is this okay?"

I nod and expect him to continue

"Words Emily. I can't hear you nod."

"Yes, that's okay." I say before lowering my head to look back down at the fresh wounds

He softly dabs my cuts and wipes the dry blood off

I see Atlas standing in the doorway and turn to look at him

"I'm going to go get something, I'll be right back." He says

I nod in response

"Stay safe okay?" Zack says as he looks at Atlas

Atlas nods his head before leaving

Zack looks back down and continues to tend to my wounds

Grabbing the bandages he wraps them around my wrists and ends both of the ends with a pretty bow ontop

"Thank you Zack."

"No problem, you can go back into the living room while I clean up and then we can watch a movie together, okay?" He says as he starts gathering the items

I nod my head and make my way into the living room sitting down on the couch thinking about everything.

I'm so thankful I met such kind hearted people like them. They make me feel so taken care of and safe. I've never really felt that way with anyone, nor have I really gotten the chance to.

It's only been a few days but I feel such a strong connection towards them and they already mean alot to me.

Zack comes into the living room a few minutes later and sits down next to me.

"Im not trying to push or make you uncomfortable, and I want you to know that. But I would like to know what happened so I can help you as much as I can so.. would you like to watch a movie or talk about what happened today?"

I take a minute to decide before taking a deep breath in.

"I don't mind." I say softly

He faces me giving me all of his attention.

"So.."

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892

A/N

Sorry for the short chapter! Next one will be longer. <3

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