all day everyday - siobhan and roger story ( tnn )

chapter 1 - 'its just the beginning'

TW; abuse, r*ger kn1ght

7;00, Monday the 12 of July.

I got up out of bed careful not to wake Roger. I looked down at my arms and winced. The bruises were getting bigger and blacker by the second. I went up towards the mirror and stared at myself. I used to be happy with how I looked, and confident. But Roger has changed that. Each time I look at myself all I can think of is comments Roger has made, and how he violated and used me. Tears began to drop, slowly under my eyes.

"You're worthless"

"No one will ever love you"

I wiped my eyes and got ready for the day. I drove off to the Marjorie nursery, Reece and Deliah said they had it covered.

8;00, monday the 12th of July.

I opened the office door and saw Marjorie and Autumn sitting there. They greeted me

"Ello Siobhan!" Marjorie said in her usual uplifting tone

"Siobhan," Autumn said, slightly nodding her head.

"Here is some paperwork for you to do, You'll be filling in Agatha's position as she is in Antarctica," Marjorie said carefully handing me the papers

I sat at the reception desk, ready and waiting for a long day ahead. I felt my phone buzz.

"New message; Roger Knight"

I sighed. He won't stop.

I continued the day with that thought in my head

"He just won't stop"

I checked the time. It was 6;50 and only 10 minutes left of my shift. I walked to the staff room and sat on my phone, mindlessly scrolling on Instagram. I saw photos of couples all over my feed, happy, loving, caring couples. Couples that were comfortable around each other, couples that made each other smile. Tears began to form again. I gently pulled up my sleeve to see that the bruise around my wrist had doubled. I think about my experience with Roger, I think about how it was when we started. I tried to go back to the good times, like when we would finish early so he would treat me to dinner, or take me to the golf course to watch him play. Each time I picture it I can't fathom how someone like that could turn into someone like this... but after all, he was never really good, was he?

"Siobhan.. Siobhan!!" Marjorie was saying

"Oh. mm." I cleared my throat

"Were closing up I thought you would've gone home by now. Thanks, Siobhan for today well see you tomorrow"

I got up and thanked Marjorie

I sat in my car, unable to leave the car park. I knew that if I did, I was walking into danger. but that's silly, right? I do this all day every day, I should be strong, I should be able to do it. I thought to myself.

"but I can't" I whispered to myself. I pressed on the pedals and went to the bar. 

6;30 Monday 12th of July

I walked inside clutching my phone. I sat down at the bar, hoping to drown my sorrows in drinks. I ordered a few wines to start with. I felt my phone buzz, then again, then again

"New messages; (18) Roger Knight"

I let out a sigh but that was just the start. my body started shaking and I couldn't control it. my face was trembling and I felt icy tears running down my legs. I couldn't control myself. the lady sitting next to me came and hugged me. I felt her soft skin gently on mine, and her black shiny hair that swiftly reached against mine. She gently nudged me towards the bathroom, and I accepted.

She gently followed me as I was wiping my tears. I was so embarrassed. I didn't talk once, just walked depressingly. I splashed my face with water and rinsed my hands. She grabbed my wrists in an attempt to pull me in and check on me but we didn't get that far. I pushed her and she slid back into the wall.

"I'm so sorry," I said while running out the door. I left money at the bar and went to my car. I drove home and in the car, I called Roger. He wouldn't answer. People would think it would make me revealed, or have a sense of comfort but it did the opposite.

8;45 Monday 12th of July

I drove up the long driveway and got out. I opened the door and I got attacked by the smells of beer and cigarettes. It reeked but wasn't different to any other night. I walked past the stairs and into the kitchen, I saw Roger there on his phone looking at bikini models. I sighed. I put my hand on his shoulder to let him know I was there. He twisted my arm around and now he had control over me

"SIOBHAN. WHY ARE YOU LATE" he said angrily

"I'm sorry Roger, nursery ran late" he tightened the grip on my wrists. My hands started to go white

"NO IT DIDN'T. YOU HAVE ONE MORE CHANCE SIOBHAN"

"R-roger I'm sorry but please believe me, call Marjorie or Autumn if you must"

"SIOBHAN!" he was getting ready angry now he reached for an empty beer bottle and smashed half of it, leaving the other half in his open hand. I winced, scared.

"SIOBHAN, LAST CHANCE"

"R-r-oger I was at nur-" he cut me off he grabbed the broken bottle and shoved it on my wrists. I yelled in agony." Roger, I swear" he swung his fist right against my cheek. I gasped in shock. Roger had always hit me, that was never a doubt but this had a different meaning behind it, it felt full of rage, and power. Different to usual. He dragged me by my wrists and put me in the guest room. The guest room was full of cameras so he was able to watch me eat, sleep, shower, and change. I was never comfortable with it, it made me feel like a toy, a dollhouse that children peek into.

1;03 Tuesday, 13th of july

It was late at night and I heard Roger sleeping in the room next to mine. I got up quietly and went to the bathroom, I looked at myself, a mess. I didn't know what I did to deserve to be in this situation, but I've been in it so long now it's normal for me. I hope one day I can find someone who will truly love me.

Authors note; hey everyone, thanks for reading this far!! This is my first fan fic so lmk anything I could improve on, and dw guys it will get better.