My Ardhangini

39. Unholy dreams

Its gonna be a good time

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Vivaan's POV.

I am here again sitting on terrace watching the moon glowing. And entangled in my own matters fighting inside my mind.

"She called me moon" my mind subconsciously muttered

"I am her moon" this time my lips did.

I closed my eyes but then those words told my Shalini said today.

I felt someone presence on my shoulder I opened my eyes and saw dad sitting besides me. I helped him to sit and he looked at me.

"What are you fighting against my child?" He asked softly

I did nothing but just hugged him. Finding solace. After good minutes of him caressing my hairs and back he spoke.

"I really found myself very lucky to have a son like you. I am really proud of you Vivi" Vivi- that's my childhood name.

"Despite being alone you made yourself very capable and successful." He said tapping my back. i smiled but then my smile fainted.

"What's troubling you beta let me know" he again asked

"I just hate that woman from bottom of heart dad"

"And why do you?" He again asked so calmly.

"Dad-" i almost yelled "dad she left us don't you remember?"

"So what?"

"So you don't hate her?" I asked out

"And why should I " urghh his replies are sucking out my patience

"Dad she broke out family. Because of her so called love we're here in this circumstances."

"So you're saying that I should hate her just because she chose love of her life?"

"I am saying you to hate her because she chose to leave her family over her so called love. How could you forgive her so easily. Love is nothing but destruction" i muttered but the last few words I said wispering.

"I was never angry or upset from her never I hated her. Neither when she chose her happiness, her love nor today. I am just a bit disappointed because there can be many other solutions but she chose that one. I suggest you also just forgive her, don't hate her beta she's your mom" He still speak calmly in gentle tone.

"She can't be my mom! because of her everything falls apart, you me our family our home everything and you ask me to forgive her?" My tone was still high.

"Beta, first you decide what are you angry of ? She left you, me our family that's why or she chose her happiness, her lovehmm?"

And now I don't have any answer of his questions.? For what am I angry. Ofcourse because she chose her so called love. No maybe because she left me alone. Or maybe both.

I don't know.

"You know what for me she is the strongest person ever in my life. She chose to left her piece of heart to move with love of her life. Beta! Our marriage was not a happy fairytale marriage, it happened because of pressure i don't even know whether she likes or not. Because of societal pressure you came in our life. You were never her choice never ever she thinks of a child also by me. I was afraid that time that whether she'll love you or not. But despite of being happy of this decision she still kept you in her top priority. She doesn't liked me at all but she loves you. And i know leaving you must be very heartbroken yet courageous decision of her life. Beta, she was compelled she was overwhelmed to see love of her life after many years. And i know it feels when you love left you" saying this his eyes get moist.