CLG DYAY 24_2

Does my presence really matter?. No it doesn't obviously!!

People are selfish
There is no feeling
They won't even talk unless it's something they want from you.
People are cruel.
They will judge you for things they haven't even gone through.
No one is here to actually accept you 
People actually don't give a shit to me.
They hate me 
They bully me , place me in a corner,doesn't even talks to me.

Is there something wrong with me?

I don't know about others but the moment I talk to someone it's always me who has to initiate a conversation or even a small talk like do they hate me that much that even when I literally say please to them for at least five times, they just lie to me on my face and go.

Like for example today I said to my assignment partner to please send me my task scores. I literally begged her to send me that and she promised to send me after going home. But she didn't.

And another example, the thing is even when I try to talk to people they just take their things make their own group and just leave me alone always. I don't know I really don't have any idea what am I doing wrong like it was raining here today and I waited for them in the rain but they didn't even acknowledge me.
Can someone guide me what am I doing wrong or why are they behaving like this with me?
Is there any problem in me. There must be.

Okay I accept I belong from a lower class families and neither I am very beautiful nor did I have a great score in my senior secondary. Basically neither monetary power nor body strength. 

But does that make me that bad that my own friends, whom I am going to share my next four years with of my college life , doesn't even acknowledge my existence and my efforts. 

I was literally standing in front of them and then they just went past me as if I was a tree and not someone waiting for them in the rain.

I really don't want to talk about my parents right now. They expected and I brutally failed. I have accepted that fact a very long time ago.

I can't win against fate, destiny, the friends, World anything and everything include my own self even sometimes my own body betrays me .

It took some time for me to actually actively and fully consciously accept that I actually failed in life from life to life.

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Thank you.
I am sorry.

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( part one _ ch@1/)

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