Professor Knows Best ( BEYNIKA ) - Completed

Studio

BEY POV

I've currently been in the studio of my home writing music that I know I'll never release. I'm literally broken.  I wanted to trust Onika so bad and just allowed the girl to be her friend. As soon as I accepted the fact of their friendship the stepping over the boundaries that should've been laid out was crossed. 

I went into the both and just sung lyrics that kept playing over and over in my head

" I feel weak 

We've been here before

Cause I feel we keep goin back and forth

Maybe it's over, maybe we're through

But I honestly can say I still love you

Maybe we've reached the mountain peak and there's no more left to climb

and maybe we lost the magic piece

and we're both to blind to find

Let's start over, lets give love their wings

Let's start over stop fighting bout the same old thing

Let's start over, we can't let our good love die

Maybe we can start all over, give love another life

I can see that we're no happy here

So why would we keep pretending when there's nothing there?

Maybe you like it, well I don't

And maybe you'll settle, well I won't

Maybe we reached the mountain peak 

And there's no more left to climb

and maybe we lost the magic piece 

and we're both to blind to find

Let's start over, let's give love their wings. "

I couldn't even finish because I just broke down crying. 

" Am I not enough? "

" You're more than enough Bey " 

" Mom, so why can't nobody love me properly? Why do I always have to end up hurt in the end? "

I sobbed into my mama arms.

" Oh Bey " 

I just cried until I couldn't cry anymore.

" Baby, do you love her? " 

I looked into my mother eyes.

" Entirely too much, I can't believe she did this to me" 

" Baby this is all im going to say. I spoke with Onika and you didn't hear her out. You also said some hurtful things to her. I know you were upset and but that didn't give you the right to disrespect her and calling her names. You love her and she loves you as well. I think the both of you need to sit down and have a grown adult conversation. If it's meant to be then everything will work out. If not then the both of you need to move on and let go. " she said rubbing my curls out of my face and kissed my forehead. 

" I see you're back in your writing mood "

 I just know she was smiling ear to ear my mama loves to hear me and my sister singing.

" Yeah ever since I met Nicki she inspired me to get back into it. She doesn't know that I actually sing but I think I'm going to show her real soon. "

My momma hummed. 

" Thank you ma, I really needed to hear that. "

" Anything for you my honeybee. Make this right. I love her for you "

" I love her for me too "