( ᥫ᭡ ) i go back to december all the time.
IN WHICH a heartbroken singer writes a song about the girl whom's heart she broke.
⸻ gracie abrams x fem!oc
exes to lovers
lowercase intended .ᐟ
published: 10/27/24
...
LISTEN BEFORE I GO ❛❛ sorry, can't save me now. sorry, i don't know how. sorry, there's no way out but down . . ❜❜ ⸻ billie eilish
12/26/23
Elena sitson her bathroom toilet seat, a small knife in her hand--one that can really cut deep. her and gracie had just gotten into a fight. elena had a little chat with reggie champion, and gracie saw with her own two eyes. this had resulted in her completely going off. the things she said... elena never knew she had the guts to say. but she was clearly wrong.
gracie's still in the house, and elena knows. she wouldn't care enough to open the door to check on her, so she didn't lock it.
she slowly drags the blade across her wrist, moaning against the towel she has her mouth covered with as a result of the excruciating pain she had never expected to feel in her life. ever.
"i'm so sorry, freckles. this is for you," she whimpers, dragging another line down one of the veins that pops out on her wrist. it's an easy target.
she lets out a scream into the towel, her toes curling in pain. "i'm so s-sorry, freckles."
each cut feels like a dosage of some sort of drug. maybe one of the ones she has stored under her bed. she feels fucking out of this world.
"i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, freckles, i'm sorry," she whispers, letting out tiny sobs.
she lets out a really loud screech, not even noticing her girlfriend standing in the doorway.
gracie abrams stands there in the doorway, watching her girlfriend cut herself almost to death.
she lets it happen.
elena deserves this, she tells herself. she deserves it all.
she gulps, her entire body trembling as she continues to just watch.
