Poison tree

The Fall

Jah looking really good up there... make me wanna.....

ALSO, guys this is a warning of self harm so if you don't read the title one and two this warning. So please don't comment saying there was no warning. Thank you!

SATURDAY....

Jahseh's POV:

I woke up and groaned. I looked at the time and sighed. School is so stressful and exhausting. But I have Zaynaa, Stoke, Ava, and Micheal. I also have my group too. But these kids still find a way to mess shit up.

I get up and walk to the bathroom and start taking a shower...

I finally got out the shower and dried off. I put on some pants and put lotion on my chest. I texted Zaynaa 'good morning' then I closed my phone.

I went downstairs and saw my mom sitting on the couch watching tv. I came up behind her and kissed her cheek. "Morning mommy." I say hugging her.

She smiles and kisses my cheek. "Good morning Jahseh." She said patting my arm. I walked over to the kitchen and made me a bowl of cereal. I walked to the couch and sat with my momma. "So how is Zaynaa?" She asks.

I smile, "She is good, we are supposed hang out today in the afternoon." I say eating my cereal. My mom Smiles and pats my back. "I'm so proud of you son." She says. I nod and finish my food.

"What's wrong?" She asks, "School, music, and all this other shit." I huff. My mom smacks the back of my head and tells me to stop cursing.

I nod and listen to what she says. "I know baby, you can always take a break from music though." She says. I shake my head 'no'

"Mom that would be selfish of me. All these kids that listen to my music need me. I don't want to let them down because they are all I've got. Well besides Zaynaa. But lately I've been drained, unmotivated, and depressed." I sigh

She nods and pats my back. "You understand?" I say looking at her. She nods again and hugs me. "Mom do you understand? Just because you nod and try to comfort me, that doesn't mean you understand." I say pulling away looking at her.

She looks at me in the eyes and says, "I understand Jah, but again you need a break you did just release a few songs and a few albums." (His older Albums on SoundCloud, the lost song)

I get up and put my dish in the sink then walk upstairs. I go in my room slamming the door and sighing on the bed. I walk to my bathroom and grab my Razor blade. I hesitated then I just remembered all the things that I let happen in the past.

That guy who beat my momma, my uncle, Geneva... Yes I take the blame for everything because I feel that I could have prevented it.

I know I shouldn't blame myself but it's just hard. So I take a deep breath and slice one cut on my wrist. I do another going deeper. I went to do another cut but I was stopped by my phone ringing. I put the blade in the sink and get my phone with blood running down my wrist.

It was a FaceTime from Zaynaa.... I answer and walk to the bathroom. "Hey baby!" I try to sound as happy as possible with my camera off. I turn on the sink and start to wash the blood.

"Hey bab- why is your camera off?" She ask all up in the phone. I lightly chuckle and turn my camera on now that it looks like I'm just washing my hands.

"Sorry, I was washing my hands." I say drying my hands and wrist. "Oh..okay, sooooooo.. Baby I wanted to know if we could go out earlier than this afternoon?" She asked sitting down at her vanity and setting the phone up.

I smile, happy that she is the one thing that makes me smile.. "yea, I can see if I can.. I might have to do some work tho." I say going to my desk.

She sighs and stops doing her facial routine. "Baby you are always working, I know it makes you happy and the fans and stuff but still.. you almost got in trouble this week at school because you were sleeping." She saying looking at me.

"I know, but-" I try saying before she interrupted me. "No, Jahseh you need to rest and take a break. I don't want you to be over worked." She says getting up. I sit in silence and watch as she goes through her closet and gets out some clothes.

"Now, Jahseh my mom is letting you come over for lunch and she doesn't like when people say no.." she says picking up the phone and smiles..

"What do I wear?" I ask getting up. She shrugs then smirks. "Hang on..ima give you a surprise before lunch." She says hanging up.

I furrow my brows and throw my phone on the bed. I sit back on my chair and sigh. I'm so tired...

Then there is a knock on my door...I huff getting up, "Who is it!" I yell.. I then hear giggling behind the door. I finally smile at how fast she came here..

I run to the door and open it. She then jumps in my arms like she hasn't seen me in a life time. I smile and kiss her neck. She giggles into my shoulder and pulls away from the hug. She looks me in the eyes and melts.

"You're so perfect.." she says shifting all her weight to one leg. I smile harder with my cheeks flushed. She then kisses me passionately and sticks her tongue in my mouth. I smile in the kiss and close the door behind her. I pick her up and walk to the bed. I sit down with her straddling me.

I pull away from the kiss and grin. "You're so beautiful, you're the only thing that makes me happy." I smile. She lays me down and grabs my arms and runs her hands up and down my chest. I watch her eyes as they look at my body.

She then looks at my shoulder down to my arms. Her smile then disappears... "baby...wha..what is this?" She says rubbing my wrist and hands.

I quickly sit up and pull my arm away.. "Nothing." I say hiding my wrist. She then frowns and gets off me.. "Jahseh..tell me.. I promise I won't judge, I'm here to love you and protect you." She say carefully caressing my cheek. I take a deep breath and lay down.

She takes my wrist and looks at it. She then looks at me with watery eyes. I frown, "don't cry.." I sigh..

I pull her down and she cries on my chest. I Pat her back and run my hands through her hair "Why..?" She says shaky. I sigh, "The past, my mom, uncle, exes, people that wronged me, school, just everything. I would say I'd rather die than be alive in this life. But I love you, you are the only thing helping me to keep going, and my fans but mostly you." I say kissing her head.

She nods her head and starts crying softly. She gets up and kisses me. I wipe her tears and kiss her back.

"Jahseh, please don't hurt yourself because of all that.. your past doesn't define you. Don't let your past define your future or body define your soul, let you soul define your body and your future define your past.." she says getting up and walking to the bathroom. She grabs the box of band-aids and pulls them out.

She opens the packaging and puts them on my wrist. She then smiles, "I'm happy that you told me...I love you Jahseh and nothing will change that...."

Yupppppp... that is the end...well at least till next chapter..🤗 bye😘