The Diary Of A Lost Soul

Part 1

30/03/2013, Saturday:

Dear diary: I'm not starting a diary because of a normal reason. Not because I have to leave my thoughts somewhere, not because I want someone to find the book and will publish it in the future, not because I saw it in a movie or read it in a book. I'm writing a diary because my teacher English asked us to do so. Actually she asked us to do that everyday when we are in Warsaw. Together with all the other 3th years (secondary school) we could go for a week to Warsaw. Except of me. I'm namely depressed and didn't even feel the energy to get out of bed. I still had to make the exercise about the diary. That made me realize that writing everything down was quite a relief for me. Even tho my neck now starts to hurt. Today everyone came back from Warsaw. I'm a little scared that I will no linger fit in the group, because I didn't go. The students supervisor (which I know, because I have got a very light form of autism, personally I don't think I act weird, though  other people do find so.) doesn't think that will be because there are 2 weeks of vacation between the trip to Warsaw and the next school day.  Erelong I'm going on a diet. Maybe it's better like that because I let myself go a little. I would really really like to be SKINNY. This evening Brandon  came on-line. Brandon is my Internet love. First he didn't come on-line for 8 days, but yesterday he was there! Just before I was going to brush my teeth, I said to him I'd really want to kiss him (you know, with those *'s, like *kisses*). Then at once he had to leave and he didn't come back. Today something similar happened. I wonder if he's still in love with me? Just before he left he let me know that he was going on vacation. He didn't say if he had Internet connection over there.  Now I'm going to sleep, because my arms are really tired and tonight the time changes, so we have to get up an hour earlier. Not that I'm planning to go to bed now. I'll probably still spend some time on facebook and I'll play some games on my iPod.