Wtf is my life

Sometime in 2024

So like I'll jump around and talk about stuff that happened a year ago or today it depends so like 👍.

So I'm gonna talk about how I had a crush on this older dude that was 2 years above me and in band class. (He played trumpet btw)

So like I have this friend and he also plays the trumpet so (we'll call him friend) but his papers dropped on the floor so I reach to pick them up and the other guy that plays the trumpet also go to pick it up. (I didn't have a crush on him during this time) It was like one of those awkward things when you go to reach for something but you see someone else reach for it and they also see you reach for it so it's just the two of you pulling and reaching for it. So like that happened and like he picked it up and our hands didn't touch but that like made a tinny spark.

And so we go on with our lives and we have to practice for our solos and like my band teacher sent me and my other friend (he plays the clarinet btw) to another room and when we were done practicing he sends my crush that I didn't know I had a crush on then and the other trumpet player to our room. Like we were leaving and they came to the door. I was like multiple feet away from him but for some reason I felt embarrassed. And like stuff like this kept happening and I didn't know why.

Until I had a dream. In the dream the guy was there and like he was never part of my dreams before and now he was and the dream was about some random stuff. And then I wake up and realize oh sh** I have a crush on this guy.

And I kept wondering why on this guy. He's not even my type. And so I decided to get more information about him by pretending I didn't know he was in band and being surprised when people said his name and asked who tf is that. Like I knew who he was but I wanted to get more information about him so I pretended I didn't know who he was and asked around. And like I got a lot of information about him out of that. (So like if you have a crush on a person but to socially anxious to talk to them and ask about them and you're not like friends with them this is a way 😉)

But this is when a good friend of mine comes into play. I want you to guess what they did. If you guessed take my crush away from me cuz they have better social skills than me you're wrong. This ain't some Wattpad life this is real life.

So like the good friend did have better social skills than me and talked to my crush more than me but I used this as an opportunity to talk to him more. And so I talk to him more but only when my friend talked to him.

So his graduation was coming and like I never told him I liked him and I wanted to tell him. So like the perfect date came by to tell him I like him.

It was a half day so our band teacher let us have the period off and guess what.

I didn't fucking tell him cause I'm a fucking coward and will never find love in my fucking pathetic life. Ok that's the end of this part