"I've been waiting for you to find me, it's always been you."
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"Are you sure you want this?" Daniel breathed heavily, nervous about continuing. My eyes became heavy, "Please.." my grip on his hair becoming tight. "Daniel.. fuck me."...
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Literally who could be calling at a worser time? I ignored it and focused all my attention on Daniel. He's so beautiful.. He pulled away and looked to the side where my phone rang. I didn't even bother looking, i thought he would ignore it.
He didn't.
"Why the fuck is Kevin calling you?" He looked upset, omg was he jealous? But no why is Kevin calling me? We haven't texted or called since sophomore year.
I let go of him, still sitting on top of him though, "I don't know." I shrugged my shoulders. I couldn't take him seriously, he looked flustered and he was out of breath. I just wanted to go back to kissing..
He kept his eyes on me as he grabbed my phone and answered the call. "Hello?" a concerned Kevin says through speaker, he's probably calling about how i left class all dramatic. besides that, i'm so turned on i can barely focus. especially because of how jealous he is and the way he answered my phone? omg.
I was gonna reach over to take my phone from him and take over the call but Daniel resisted and said, "She's all yours bro." Daniel hung up the call and hands me the phone. What just happened? I think i'm gonna cry again. Daniel tried to push me off him gently, so i got off him and sat next to him. He grabbed his stuff and was about to leave the car, "Daniel?" I called looking at him leave the car and slam the door shut. I started crying all over again.
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It had been hours since all that happened. I've been in bed all day sleeping. Sleeping away everything. I finally thought everything was good and i was finally getting my Daniel back. I miss his green eyes.
I get his perspective though, if i were to see him get a call from Layla i'd smack the fuck out of him. Then I would go back to kissing him.. I guess we're two different types of people
i feel like he's really not gonna want me anymore. He probably thinks I'm a slut like my mom does, but Daniel was literally my first kiss. Like ever. He's for sure done with me, i think he was actually done with me a long time ago.
I'm the one that bothered him about going out to eat, i'm the one that makes conversation, i'm the one that kissed him. It's me, i'm doing everything he isn't doing. I guess he actually doesn't like me. Maybe he was just sticking around for sex.. And he was very close. i'm so ashamed and i'm sad. I'm so attached to him, this is gonna be a huge problem.
I started crying again and just fell asleep. I woke up to my phone vibrating like crazy. It was 1am, why is someone disturbing my sleep this late?
It was Daniel.
I was just so tired physically and mentally, I didn't want to talk so i declined the call and tried to sleep. But he called again, and again and again. I picked up and put him on speaker, "Daniel I'm sorry, please forgive me." I quickly said not giving him the chance to speak. I was desperate, my eyes watered as I closed them and tried to not fall asleep.
"Don't apologize, I overreacted. I'm sorry. I was just jealous cause i've seen you and Kevin. That doesn't mean i should've reacted the way i did though. It wasn't your fault, okay?" So i was right, he was jealous. Do i forgive him though? it was my first kiss and he was talking about "She's all your bro." If he really was jealous wouldn't he have like, i don't know, said something different? Instead he gave me away like I was candy. He left me alone when i was vulnerable. No one had ever seen me the way he did, i felt so safe with him..
it remained quiet until i said something, "Yea, it's okay." it wasn't okay.
Hearing his voice was so comforting. I missed being in his touch. I think im addicted now.
He didn't say anything, i wasn't even phased by it no more. If he wants someone quiet and dry, i'll give him that. Whatever he wants. "Clarissa?" he says quietly, "Will you stay on call?" he asked sounding like a baby. "Depends, are you gonna talk to me like that bitch Layla or are you gonna give me dry responses?" I asked in a serious tone, if he's a jerk to me why can't i be to him? He immediately responded. "I'm sorry. I just like meeting new people. I'll talk to you, Clarissa."
I almost came. I love when he says my name.
"You don't needa meet new people, you got me." we both laugh. we ended up talking for a few hours. I got to learn a little more about him and vise versa. He's from Nevada with his mom. She landed a new job here a few weeks ago so they made the move to come here. His mom knew some people in admin from school and managed to get him a spot at Coral High. Thank God to his mom or I wouldn't have met my bae.
