How to Love Yourself

Chapter 10: Do You Get Deja Vu?

Kyo's POV:

Kyo got out to go to Wade's House and I need to go meet Zoey today for a date. How can I deal with it and say the truth or maybe just say goodbye to Zoey without her knowing the truth?

Then, I felt a bit dizzy again, guess I don't feel well again. I need to rest for a bit, then I can go out and make it in time for the Full Blue Moon. 

Hopefully, I can feel good after resting.I fell asleep for a few hours, and when I woke up, it was 7 pm, so I rushed to the bathroom and took a bath then changed clothes. But, as I went out of the room Wade and Kyo appeared.

Wade was shocked to see me. He fainted and then fell to the floor. 

"Oh! Oh! I thought you were gonna hide? I've texted you and called but weren't you answering any of it!" says Kyo in an angry way.

" I fell asleep 'cause I felt dizzy a few hours ago, I didn't mean to do this! I'm so sorry" I said to him. 

" Now, How are we going to explain this to him now?" says Kyo.

I shrugged cause I had no idea how to explain things and this can end in not the nicest way possible. Then, Zoey called me, so I grabbed my phone then hung it up. " Wait! What is this interview? And the news headlines? It says that I am dating a Journalist Woman. Was that Zoey who called you, my co-worker who liked me back then? So you weren't acting like me at all in public? You were trying to be yourself and trying to tear up my reputation is that really what you want? I've given you so many chances to not do such rebellious things that can make us suspicious. I don't even know why I fell for you. I don't even know who I am anymore because of you. I thought you'd like me. I thought you'd dressed like a man for me? But, none of it was true, was it? was it?" he said to me with such hatred. 

But, then somebody knocked on the door, it was Zoey and he was looking for me.

"Kyo are you there? Hello? Is anyone home?" says Zoey. Kyo opened the door, and let Zoey in and he said " Yeah, Zoey I know you liked me back then but not me, It's the other me that dated you and lied to you." Zoey is confused about what Kyo said to her, and he is shocked when she sees the two of us look the same. 

I tried to explain it to Zoey but he slapped me on the face and then walked out of the apartment. I tried to chase her outside but before I could even do that she got into the taxi fast.

I put my hands on my head, cause I feel stressed and anxious about what just happened. 

"What do you do now? Huh? Do you want to get inside my house? You lied and lied, and I tried to understand every single flaw of you. But, you stabbed me in the back!" he said to me angrily.

Then, I punched him in the face and said " You know what! I'm tired of pretending to be like you! I'm tired of being in your control! I'm tired of being in everyone's control! You made me look like a FUCKING whole different person, You make me think I'm not myself that I'm not myself anymore! Each time I try to be optimistic, but doing things I don't like doing, makes me uncomfortable! Going out to a club, drinking with guys, and smoking cigarettes! Do you think I'm happy with your practices and hobbies? NO! This time I'll choose what's for me!".

He fell and cried and cried. Then, I walked outside in the pouring rain trying to find a place where I could be myself in this world!