I was once pure. untouched, is what i mean. i loved knowing that a man couldn't ever touch me because I wouldn't allow them to. I loved making them think that they would be able to but eventually they would find out they couldn't. That's how life was. I will never understand why I let this one man touch me. I know I felt ready but that doesn't mean I was. I can't shake off the feeling of feeling gross. What if a man doesn't ever want to touch me because of him? What if I never recover from this feeling? It's all because of some man. It feels like my life will forever be controlled because of this. I will never be able to feel pure again because I know I'm not. A once pure soul turned into nothing but a disgusting impure one.
