a blond guy change my life

a blond guy

I have been with my girlfriend for a year now, we had a nice time together, I think. It was Monday morning. I picked up my girlfriend and went to school with her,

When we arrived at school, she went to her class and I went to my class,

when I entered my class, I noticed a boy, he had blond and half long hair, he must be new

he was sitting next to me, so I sat down on my seat where this boy was sitting, I said nothing, I put my books that we need right away on the table

Suddenly the blonde boy said, "Hey, my name is Lio and I'm new here. Could you show me around?"

I looked at his eyes, his eyes were beautiful brown

I just said "huh yes of course, my name is levi"

lio smiled, i smiled back, for the rest of the day i was pretty unfocused, during the breaks my girlfriend asked me what was wrong but i didn't answer, then the reason why i was so distracted was lio...

lio and I started to meet more often, we became best friends, my girlfriend didn't like that because I hardly gave her any attention, which is why she broke up with me, I honestly didn't care...

I was more involved with lio, one day we met at my house, we sat on my bed and played video games, when I lost the game I put the controller down and pretended to be offended but it was just fun, when I did that lio suddenly came closer to me and kissed me, I was surprised but I didn't push him away, I returned the kiss and I started to play with lions hair

Suddenly my father came in while we were still kissing, when he saw that his son was kissing a boy he started screaming, he shouted at me and at Lio, he told Lio to go away, I started to cry, Lio wanted to comfort me but my father kept screaming that he should go away

Finally, Lio left too. The evening was terrible. My father didn't let me eat and he took my cell phone away from me. I sat in my room for the rest of the evening and cried for several minutes.

the next day at school I went to school, when I arrived at school I didn't see lio anywhere. 'does he still like me after yesterday?' I asked myself all day

after school i decided not to go home, i went to lio's house instead, when i rang the doorbell his mother opened it, she looked sad, "excuse me...is lio home...?"
i asked hesitantly, she shook her head and asked me to come in

I feared the worst, I followed her into the house, we sat down on the couch, then she gave me an envelope with my name on it, I took it with shaking hands

-Dear Levi, today as I saw you the first time I got a crush on you I hope i had enough courage to say it to you, because you had a girlfriend.-

That was written in the first note, I still smiled at these sweet words but with each note the words became more profound and my facial expression changed accordingly.

-Dear Levi, I hope I can give you all these letters at some point. Today I was with you in your room, we played games, you were sulking because you lost the game, you put the controller down and then I came closer and kissed you. You kissed back and played with my hair... it was a nice feeling to kiss you and how you played with my hair. Then suddenly your father came in and shouted at us... you slowly started to cry because we didn't do something wrong, I wanted to comfort you but you're father shouted at me, he shouted that I should go, I then went home at some point. I'm sitting at my desk right now, i want to go to the park to calm down a bit. I'm looking forward to seeing you at school to give you the hug you needed today. I love you Levi please don't forget that<3-

That was in the last letter..., My eyes were filled with tears,
Suddenly, Lio's mother spoke, "He was hit by a speeding car last night while he was out for a walk..." she said with a few tears in hers eyes

I froze, the tears in my eyes started to roll down my cheeks, I had trouble breathing, why didn't he tell me earlier? Is it my fault? No, it was my father's fault, but anyway, Lio was gone now.

I cried for a few minutes. Lio's mother gave me tissues. I thanked her and gave her a hug goodbye and then went home with red eyes.

When I got home, my father shouted at me again, saying that boys shouldn't cry. I just ignored him and went to my room. I didn't go out for the next few days and I hardly ate anything.

After a few days, I went out one dark evening without telling anyone where I was going. I walked down the long street. It was quiet and dark.

I stood on the edge of the bridge and imagined his face one last time. His beautiful eyes and his beautiful silky Blonde hair. A few more tears came to my eyes. I said "I love you" for the last time and jumped...

hopefully we'll see each other in the next life...