He never loved me.

Part 1

He was the sweetest thing there could be at this point. His name was Justin. He made me feel like I was living in a fairy tail. A beautiful fantastic fantasy that I didn't want to leave. We have so many memories. From our first kiss.. To last goodbye. He was my hardest hello , and my hardest goodbye. He used to ask me how my day was, and tell me that I'm beautiful and that he loves me. But that was all a lie. Just so he hurt me and watch me struggle and crumble through It all. I don't understand how he changed so quick. He used to be a sweet and nice person to be around. Now it's as if I don't even no him anymore. I miss the old him. The one that use to pick me up and carry me to my classes, or the one that would make out with me until I could barley breath. All the good memories just washed away like waves at the beach. I can't forget him. I try so hard to but I can't I just can't let go of the one who actually made me feel like I was something special. When I'm with him we are the kids are parents warned us about. He use to do so much to make me happy and laugh. But at the same times he makes me go and sit in the corner of my room listen to loud music and cry. It all came to me way to fast. All million thoughts spinning around my head a million times. He wanted me to make him look cool. Every since I figured that out , all I thought to myself was "oh darling, he never even loved you". It felt like love. True love, to me it did but to him it was all a little game . He would kiss me as if no one was watching. And he would always say "I promise I won't leave u". It was all a lie, myth a stupid big fat lie. And I can't even forget our 3 to a whole night talking on FaceTime. He always told me your never alone you have me . You said you would never lie to me. That's another lie right there^^. He dumped me. Left me, and hopped over to my best friend. Asked her for nudes and they broke up. And then he hopped to my other best friend. And he came back to me. And of corse I was happy because he was all I cared about at the time . But then he kept dumping me and coming back to me. Why did u come back if u just want to watch me crumble away in tiny little pieces?..