Gold to My Veins

Chapter 2

Natalie and I met through no comfortable thing. It was severely uncomfortable to even remember the sincere awkwardness and embarrassment of it. She was so bright in her words and playful in the bedroom addressing me with names that have left my mouth salivating. Feminized into oblivion and you desiring that someone else entirely. Consuming every second of me mistress...

A bar is somewhere I never seem to go but life has been so tasteless and cold I felt so anxiously free. Floating away from crowded spaces and coming into my own. Forgetting everyone can be easy if you just let go and feel nothing for yourself. Consistency is key. Forgetting to look into the mirror for months. Breaded and battered into names of judgement. As I was passing fate maybe I bumped into a beautiful blonde. Not paying much attention  collected myself quickly apologizing for wasting her drink. Embarrassed at this stage at this venue even in neon lights and heavy fog of cigarettes and overthinking it still felt like a spotlight in the crowd everyone staring waiting to applaud the performance.

I was slapped,"You son of a bitch!". I felt sick and my face stung embarrassed standing there lost and staring at the floor as she yelled and ranted soft hands grabbed my face and pulled me back in. "Look at me when I talk to you," everything faded as her very beauty was stunning in the darkness and the vibrance of her makeup hourglass hips fitted into a blue dress and a fragrance so captivating I was already locked in the cage. Her hand still firm,"hello motherfucker!" She said,"you owe me a drink". My mouth became severely dry and I had to swallow and wiped the sweat from my brow and neck,"of course mam. I apologize dear I'm so sorry I'm so sorry," I started to hyperventilate and sweat through sorrowful clothes I keep forgetting to fold. Uninvited I felt but her gaze and invitation. Natalie bites her lip softly and blows me a kiss playfully,"let's go somewhere."  I follow starstruck at her gorgeous self in all its free songs of white. We leave the noise and enter the quiet of the night. At first I thought I had been played or lost her. Breathing and shivering in the cold she wanted to me and comes to me,"Hi I'm Natalie," before I can offer my hand in almost akwardness she plants a kiss on my cheek. "I'm so sorry to have acted so harshly. I studied her for a second and with embarrassment and emptiness,"I truly am sorry I'm not much for talking to be honest I don't even remember what brought me to the bar," she stares intently and I continue,"I'm so insecure I can't even function out in public." I start to stutter," I should just go home ," I finish. I start to walk away and she taps my shoulder ,"please take me home I'd feel safer with some company and my way of making it up to you,"  she slides her hand seductively into mine ,"I find you fine and the very thought of wrapping myself around you has crossed my mind stay true to you". Wide eyed almost confused I still had felt more free than I had in years. We began to walk as the chill hugged the night tight exchanging words which seemed from a different world. "You look so gorgeous," my heart started to race faster in the split second silence. I feel the grip of her hand tighten,"thank you so much doll," she says brightly. "I still find you fine I might just let a certain feeling over pursue in my apartment". I got real quiet for sure. Embarrassed and insecure trying to read into her why she was desiring me... No one ever did. We walked through the loudness of the town just carrying heavy thoughts.

When I walked her up dimly lit stairs and hall lights I entered her home and she shut the door with a click. I began to sweat freaking out. "Relax honey," she kisses me with intent with motive sliding my shirt off and combing her fingers softly up and down my chest severe to my health this is beginning to feel. I lose myself and begin to find her. Sliding off her dress slowly taking my time in her starstruck gaze snapping off her bra revealing large breasts ready for anything playful.

With her jeans still on barely caring lustfully feeling she begins to wrap her legs around me moaning," fuck me, want me, need me," I pick her up thinking I have her and her legs try to tie tightly around my waist and I lose balance and fall on the bed with her on top of me,"oops," she says. I grab her hips and begin to trace my fingers along her shoulders, back and the top of her ass. She flips her hair to the side and kisses me moaning with passion and determination. Aggressively going for my belt moaning as she bit softly into my neck,"I believe that's mine now," she said and then grabs my throbbing cock finally freeing my pants off and onto the cold wood floor "and this too," she moans and giggles excitedly. I moan softly and insecurely ask,"are you sur?" Not really being able to finish I'm too breathless. She answers,"I want you doll I'm more than sure," she grabs my face,"hey hey look at me she puts my hands on her chest and I feel her heart beat too fast a solo wouldn't do it anymore epic justice. "It's yours at least for this moment". I kiss her lips as if oxygen im lacking and her not feeling enough of what I am. She stood there in perfected abandonment of security surrending herself to me and to me her. I slide myself into her softly watching her slowly slide down my dick moaning against our passionate lips,"fuck me raw primal I don't care make me feel something," she begs to me. Natalie starts to quicken her pace and I run my hands along her body  admiring the journey admiring the adventure and I go with her not trying to push any boundaries lost in her apartment. Spinning is my life ending or beginning? I come back to her abandoning my thoughts and rubbing her tits softly then a soft touch on her cheek to pull her to me to thrust her deeper. "Oh my God," she moans against me ruffling the short hair I had at that point. "I want more please fucking take me master," Jesus that sounded strange but right because everything is already so strange. I decided to lay her on the bed admiring all that she was and all she wanted to be. Natalie moaned for me,"babyyyy," slow and too seductive I reached between her legs where I was met by her lips thighs and a moan powerful like a song.

My dick back inside her pushing softly thrusting inside her. Natalie moaning and greedily throwing back to what I'm giving her. Minutes.. seconds....hours.... Time was lost for what seemed forever. To kiss Natalie, to belong to her, to treasure her, to adore her. Everything was at play and we must have passed sometime late in the morning.

I woke up to bright light as if the brightness was telling me himself he was loud. She was gorgeous in just my shirt and nothing else. Smooth and elegant with hair down to her ass.... "Here is some coffee baby," I take in a soft sip and the aroma which is seeming to quiet the morning.

"Where you been?" I teased
"Look in your hand" she says
"Oh shit" I laugh
"Yeah mhmmmm," she kisses me. Not letting go for what felt like a perfect forever. A couple weeks later in our steady growing of our relationship I found out Natalie was pregnant... He was beautiful... So beautiful..... Was......