Bluelock x Reader - Oneshots!

Dreams of You - SAE

Angst + Comfort(??)

"I love you, Sae."

"I love you too, [Y/N]."

"Please babe. Wake up."

Sae shot up, cold sweat running down his body. His hands were shaking and his breath was uneven, how many times has this been now?

26. It had been 26 days since he broke up with you. Why was he still having dreams of your first date? Your loving words and tender affirmations, your smile so bright it had engraved itself in the back of his mind.

It had been a month since he broke up with you, and yet every night your warm touch had seeped into the back of his mind, and into his dreams.

Breaking up with you was meant to help him focus. Not the other way around.

He wondered if it would've been better if he just didn't leave.

"Whatever. What's been done has been done. There's no going back."

He took a deep breath, fingers pressed against the bridge of his nose.

The clock read 4:02 AM. Not that he had to check, it was always 4 in the morning that these dreams released him.

Sae wondered what you were doing in Japan, did you have lunch yet? What were you eating? Who were you eating with? Was it your new boyfri-

"Stop."

Sae hissed at himself, trying to keep his thoughts in check. He would think of you everyday, he hated it. Whenever he saw your favourite food, he'd think of buying you some. A plushie, would you like it? The cats at the shelter, maybe he should send you a pic...

He grabbed his hair, nails digging lightly into his scalp. It was always you. Why must you haunt his poor heart head?

He refused to waste more time on this. He stood up and fixed his bed, a habit he got from you. It was already 4:11, he'd used almost 10 minutes thinking of you again. He clenched his jaw, mentally noting that he didn't deserve to get himself a sweet treat today, for wasting such time.

But it was better than yesterday's 18 minutes, right? That's improvement! Plus, he had trained for 10 hours yesterday as a punishment, so surely it'd be okay to take it easier today, right?

Sae remembered how you used to convince him to take breaks from training with such logic.

He dug his nails into his palm. Enough of you already, he had things to do.

Sae left the apartment, wandering the empty streets illuminated by the streetlamps and the few open cafes/restaurants.

Sae used to blast music through his headphones to mute his thoughts, but it stopped working after he was reminded that you were the one who handcrafted all the very few playlists of his.

So now he just tried to focus on his surroundings, promptly ignoring any thoughts of you.

He'd been doing this for weeks now, did he feel any better? Would he be happier if he fully got over you? Sae didn't let himself answer that question.

He was well familiar with the area by now, becoming a regular at any place open at this time around here. There was nothing new for him to focus on.

No no, surely there was something. Wasn't a new cafe opening somewhere? He could've sworn someone handed him a flyer about it...

But truthfully, he could barely remember anything these days.

Sae pulled out his phone and looked through his gallery to find the picture of the flyer, pretending to not see the dozens of your photos, which he had deleted and re-downloaded multiple times now.