Draco x Reader

Chapter 7

TALKS ABOUT SELF H@RM

Y/n woke up to Draco in the shower. She sat up and rubbed her eyes as she remembered the whole night. She expected to be in pain but draco was gentle yet rough at the same time. She then heard the shower turn off so she instinctively wiped her face, fixed her hair and grabbed some cherry flavoured lip balm out of her purse and put it on before throwing it to the side without looking where it went. Soon afterwards, the door unlocked and Draco came out and y/n folded all over again. His hair and body were still wet, the morning sun streaming through the curtains hit the water droplets at just the right angle and made his washboard abs look like they were covered in glittery angel dust.

He then said "So are you going to keep staring at my abs or are you going to shower?" Y/n's jaw closed quickly and she gulped in embarrassment before saying "Sorry, I was... Distracted" she got out of his bed and he looked for a fresh towel for her but he didn't have any so he said "Shit, I don't have any fresh towels, the towels are in the linen closet which is right outside but you'd have to wait for me to get dressed before I go get it. Then y/n said "oh that's ok, I can get it if you want" he then looked up at her and said "ok, it's in the closet right outside my door to the left. Take as many as you need."

Y/n nodded with a smile and said "thanks" She slowly opened the door and Blaise walked past her as she was about to reach the closet and said "Had fun last night did we?" with a smirk. Y/n's eyes widened as she realised what he meant by that. She quickly got her towel but before she could make it back to the door Mattheo walked past her and said "Damn y/n, I didn't know that Draco put it down that well!" Y/n was completely mortified, she ran back to Draco's room and slammed the door behind her.

Draco looked up and frowned in confusion and said "What's that about? Did one of the boys do something? I swear to God if it was Blaise-" walking towards the door. She then stopped him and said " No Draco it's not their fault" Draco then said "So what happened?" Y/n sighed and said "Draco, next time you plan on making me scream like that... Use a bloody muffliato spell!" and whacked him on the arm with her towel before pushing past him. He then started laughing and pulled her back by her arm and said "Don't be embarrassed, y/n" he kissed her on the lips and said "and why do you taste like a cherry flavoured lollipop?" y/n then said " A magician never tells her secrets" with a smirk. She then walked off and went to shower.

When she got out she started dressing up, Draco had given her sweatpants and a t-shirt for her to wear. Once she had dressed up, Draco came back in and said "Hey, do you want to go get some breakfast?" Y/n thought about it and said "Uh maybe that's not such a good idea... I should go find my friends, they might be worried about me." She took her dress from his closet and said " Bye" with a smile before leaving.

Y/n got back to her room, none of the girls were there. She threw herself onto her bed and let out a sigh of disbelief from last night. The whole thing flashed through her mind over and over. She felt a small smile creep onto her face. She felt like no one else in the world existed.

She heard the door swing open. Hermione walked in and said "Oh y/n, I didn't expect you to be here. Where were you last night, you just disappeared into thin air. Did you just get back now?" Y/n tried her best to lie and said " I must have gotten back into bed after you fell asleep" with a nervous laugh. Hermione narrowed her eyes and said "Well the other girls said- wait a minute, what are you wearing?" getting closer to y/n. Y/n looked down at her clothes and said "Oh this? I took a quick stop at diagon alley at, erm, 2:00 am?" unable to come up with a better lie.

Hermione gave her a look that said *Just how daft do you think I am?* Y/n sighed and said "OK, fine... I was with... a boy" looking away. Hermione's eyes widened as she gasped and went to sit on y/n's bed and said "Who??" excitedly. Y/n suppressed a smile and said "That's not important... But he's really cute and funny and sweet and people really misunderstand him." Hermione then laughed and said " Oooh someone's in loveeee~"  Y/n playfully pushed her and said "Shut up, I am not in love with him" She said it as if she was reassuring hermione that she wasn't in love with Draco, but deep down she was trying to convince herself.

Over the next few weeks y/n and Draco shared a few interactions but for the most part they found it better to not draw attention to their complicated situationship. As the weeks went by y/n and Draco started to grow apart and y/n felt herself falling into a depressive state. The days felt greyer and darker than before. Her smile started to fade. And Draco was just another boy again. Y/n had always suffered with depression before and she knew that this feeling of her life being so bleek meant she was having an episode, soon she was going to have a mental breakdown and start self h@rming again.