delicate | b.e.

eighteen.

BILLIE

"I love you, and I don't want to, ooh."

I'm bored, so I'm singing to Fallon.

"Ugh, can you wake up already? I miss you." I sigh.

The boys are at home and they insisted I should come but I wanted to be with Fal.

She's been out for three days.

I want her to wake up so badly.

I rub her head and push her hair behind her ears as I hum softly. "I want to be with you, Fal. I really do. Just please wake up."

Her hand twitches around mine since I'm holding it and I smile a little. "You better hurry up." I chuckle.

Okay, I'm kind of losing it without her.

I genuinely hate being apart from her.

I'm getting attached and I'm cursing myself for it. She's a mafia leader and I'm falling for her.

I'm such an idiot.

But for someone so dangerous, she really is sweet. It's sad she has to be like this.

She had so much ahead of her and she has to do this.

Hearing her say she wanted to be a doctor broke my heart. I wish she could've followed her dreams.

She deserved it.

She deserves so much better.

Dr. Duke comes in and smiles warmly. "Hi, Billie. How's it going?" He asks as he checks her IV.

"Good. Is she doing okay?" I ask. "Yup. Should hopefully be up within a day." He answers. "Thank you." I reply. "Of course." Dr. Duke says before walking out of the room.

I don't know if I can wait another day. I miss her so bad.

I sigh and rest my chin on my hand. "I really need you, Fal. I miss you so much. I miss your smile and your laugh and.. uh, your kisses, and everything about you? I miss you a lot."

A smirk creeps onto Fallon's face and her eyes open. "You missed me that much?"

"Holy fuck." I mumble. "Mmm," She stretches. "Where am I?"

"Your doctor." I answer. "You remember what happened?"

"Yeah, I got shot or whatever." She shrugs. "How the fuck are you so calm about that?" I ask. "Not my first time." Fallon rolls the sleeve up on her shoulder and shows me a bullet wound. "Baby, you almost died." I roll my eyes. "Did you just call me 'baby?'" She smirks. "Sorry." I blush.

"It's cute."

"Uhm," I clear my throat. "I really missed you. I'm so glad you're okay."

"Thanks for staying with me, darling. I could hear all your singing and shit. It was adorable." She tells me. "You're welcome." I say nervously.

I stand up and kiss her head. "How are you feeling?"

"My stomach hurts like a bitch, but he's got me all drugged up, so I'm good." Fallon shrugs her shoulders. "Where's Owen and James?"