You're never alone

He finds out (luke hemmings imagine) **trigger warning**

Your boyfriend of 2 years has been on tour for the past few months, his band will be touring australia in a few weeks so youll see him then but the thought of seeing him then doesnt help how much you miss him now, it doesnt help how lonely you feel without him by your side every day sure you could have asked him not to go and if you told him what your going through he would have listened..he would have never left but, would that make you feel better? Knowing you ruined his chance of a lifetime because you would miss him? No... It wouldnt and thats why you encouraged him to leave, to leave you by yourself leave you with just your thoughts that made you regret continuing your life even when you had the blade in your hand and could have ended it there but didnt because you knew how much luke loved you and you didnt want to hurt him. It didnt stop you from cutting though..you cut all over both of your arms because without luke to show you your worth all you had was your alcoholic mother and abusive father who to talk to you would have to visit in prison. And you had no friends to turn to because well you had none..when you were in school all you got was bullied so the only people you could depend on were luke and his bandmates who are all on tour. You couldnt take it any longer so you went into the bathroom and cut again...you made sure to lock the door even though noone was home you just felt more secure locking the door. After about 20 minutes of sobbing you opened the door to see luke..he came home early to surprise you but yet had a tear in his eye "(y/n) whats wrong?" You wiped your face to make sure there was no tear stains left from all your crying "nothing luke im so happy to see you i missed you so much!" You went to hug him but he grabbed your arm " (y/n) why is there blood coming through your sleeve" he pulled up your sleeve to see all the old scars and also the fresh cuts that stained through your shirt "why" he managed to get out before pulling you into a hug and crying into your shoulder. The thought of you hurting yourself hurt him but the thought of him not being enough to make you stop killed him inside its been 20 minutes and your both still standing there in a hug both crying into eachothers shoulder

(So as again this was not to promote self harm but to show how much it can hurt those who love you x this is my first attempt to write anything so please dont blame me if you thought it was rubbish if you think there should be a part 2 message me and ill get to making it soon x💗