Make You Mine | J. Jungkook

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐫- "𝑾𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒆"

⟹ Your POV

"Wake up!" I hear my brother yelling next to me, pulling me out of the comfort of sleep.
"God.." I groan as my eyelids flutter open
"Don't yell like that"
"But it's time for you to wake up! Oh, and by the way. Was Jungkook here last night?" He asks and I slowly nod, starting to sit up on my bed and rub my eyes.
"Yeah..he was. He said something about Alice and I comforted him" I say and look at Taehyung, still a little grumpy and lost from sleep.
"Again? That poor guy.." he mumbles and I nod slowly "yeah.."
"Oh! Yeah, right. Look what Dad wrote to that text" he says and then I remember the dare I gave him yesterday, causing a small laugh to escape my lips.
I look at his phone and read the text our dad wrote back.
'Hey, son. I think you wrote the wrong number..do you have a girlfriend though? I'd be happy to hear about her. Oh and if you two have time today, could you come over? Your mom made Y/n's favorite food and we miss you👍🏻'
I burst out laughing as I read it, covering my mouth whilst doing so and Tae now chuckles too.
"The way he just acted like it's completely normal made me laugh so much" He says
"Right? God, I love dad. Anyways, when should we go over to them today? After school?"
"I don't know, you decide. I still need to text him that I don't have a girlfriend..sadly"
"Your fault"
He gasps a little at my words, acting offended and stopping right on his tracks when he was about to leave the room just now.
"What? That's not even true!" He pouts
"It is! You should just confess already..." you sigh "You don't even know if she likes you back or not and if you don't do it soon then I will do it instead of you"
"Yeah yeah, alright..I'll think about it, okay?"
I roll my eyes and nod slowly at his words just before he left my room and closed the door behind him.

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"Jimin- no! Don't you fucking dare to touch my make up with your dirty ass hands" I say, throwing him a glare.
We're at school, again. It's normal break right now and I'm redoing my make up because school air is real.
"Oh, come on! It's so red and sparkly"
I roll my eyes and just take my make up, my lip tint and my mascara, pulling it closer to myself on the tennis plate we're all sitting on. It's in a place where you can look at the whole school yard and everyone, it's good for a big friend group like ours. Especially with the constant gossip we have.
"You're no fun"
"And you're annoying"
Jimin rolls his eyes at my words and looks away then, over the whole school yard.
"Oh, looks who's there.." he mumbles to us in a disgusted manner. We all look at the direction he's looking at and see Jungkook with Alice, talking or whatever you say when one person is talking and the other one isn't even paying attention.
"Ew.." I mutter under my breath
"Whore" Yoongi says
"I swear" Taehyung answers.
"She doesn't even loves him.." Sunhi says quietly and we all agree.
"Yeah. It can be seen in the difference of their eyes. His are sparkling and hers are just bored, uninterested and are following every second guy that walks next to them" I say
"Yeah..I don't understand what he sees in her to be honest. She's not even that pretty" J hope responds.
"Oh, she is. She's pretty" I say, my voice a little quieter then before. How much I wish I was in her place right now..how much I wish I would look like her. God, I'm so jealous. But something in me also wants to kill her.
"Not really. She's..okay I guess but you're so much better in every way for him." Taehyung says while still looking at Alice and Jungkook.
"Mm..thank you" I smile weakly, yet I don't believe him. I would be better because I would show and give him everything he needs but my looks are the complete opposite of hers. She's just so much prettier. Her hair is so smooth, her skin is so smooth, her smile is pretty, her eyes are probably the prettiest thing about her..god, how much I hate it.
Why can't I just be normal?
"He's right. You would be better and would also look way better next to him" Sunhi says
"Thanks" I smile weakly again.
"Just the truth" Sunhi says.

Jungkook wasn't even near us today..I'm starting to get worried. He hasn't answered to my texts this morning even if he was online and he never does that. He usually immediately answers me even if he's busy but now he didn't.
He hasn't talked to me today and hasn't even looked at me yet. I'm worried, is he alright? Did I do something wrong? Does he hate me now? Why isn't he talking to me? What if he started to see me the way I see myself? Oh my god no.. did I hurt him? I didn't mean to..is he mad at me? Do I annoy him? Am I too clingy? Was I too clingy yesterday? Did I make him feel uncomfortable? Or is he just not feeling well? Does he need my comfort? What if he hates me though?
"Y/n?" A voice suddenly interrupts my thoughts. It's the one of Dambi who's looking at me with a worried gaze.
"Hm?" I hum, my tone coming out as almost panicked. I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even notice the tears forming in my eyes, threatening to fall down but I hold them back.
God..no, Y/n stop. Don't be so dramatic. It's just thoughts. Why am I even crying? I'm so dumb. I don't deserve that.
"Is everything alright?" I hear Taehyung saying while he placed his hand on my shoulder, caressing it with his thumb and looking at me with worried eyes.
I immediately nod
"Yeah, yeah I'm fine. No worry's" I say with a small smile, forcing it because I really don't want to cry right now.
I'm just so worried. I don't know how to stop my thoughts, it's only getting more and more and I feel like I'm going to pass out, out of fear.
I don't want him to hate me..
My chest rises and falls with each breath I take, I can't breath, my head starts to feel dizzy and starts hurting as well.
I'm so pathetic.
I need to calm down, but how? How should I do that? I can't even control my own thoughts.
"No, you're not.." Dambi says
"I am, really...don't worry" I say, desperately trying to hold back from breaking down completely. My voice is wavering, my mind racing, my breaths only getting heavier and that leaves me feeling dizzy. Like I'm going to pass out. I can't stand it. I need to be alone.
"I'm going to go to the toilet, okay? I'll be back fast" I say quickly, not letting them answer and just rush to the bathroom of the school.
"Wait! I'm going with you" Sunhi says and walks towards me. I can see how worried she is, how worried everyone is but I really can't stand being around people right now.
"I'm sorry..but can I be alone? Please?" I almost beg. My voice shaking and my breath only getting heavier. I feel so dizzy, my sight is getting blurry and my mind is only racing with thoughts, making it hard to focus on anything else.
She sighs softly at my words, growing more concerned.
"Are you sure? I'm worried.."
"I know..but I'm fine, really. I just need to be alone a little" 
"..Okay, but please drink something. You're dizzy I see that"
I nod slowly and then turn around to walk towards the bathroom.

⟹ Authors POV

Once you arrived in the bathroom you quickly go into a toilet cubicle and lock the door behind you. Your mind is filled with unanswered questions, too much of them and everyone is towards Jungkook. You hate it that you overthink so much, only because he hasn't talked to you today but you can't help it. It's just how you are. The fact that he didn't even responded to your texts left you the most questions in your head. Did you really say something bad? Your afraid that he hates you, you want to ask him if he still likes you. If he's bored of you already. If you're annoying him. If he's okay. If you did something wrong. If he's mad, but you don't. You don't want him to see what you're thinking, how you're thinking and also don't want him to see how horrible you feel. You want no one to see that. You're used to bottling everything up. You find comfort in not saying what you think or what you may do to yourself, because you think that you're not worthy enough to be heard. It hurts, of course it does. It hurts every damn day but you'd rather suffer then have other people looking at you with that worried gaze, that one that's sad because of you because nothing else makes you feel more guilty then that.

No matter how often someone tells you 'I'll listen to you, really. I don't want you to bottle up your feelings' you just answer with I know and that you'll try to talk about it, but do you? No. You don't know where to start so you say nothing. That's why you find comfort in listening to other people, because you know that you don't have to talk about yourself, it makes you feel relieved.

Your shaky hand lifts up your water bottle occasionally drinking out of it and putting your legs up, against the door of the cubicle so you don't feel so dizzy anymore.
You're starting to calm down slowly, your breath not so heavy anymore as you try to think of something else. Desperately trying to think of a happy place, something that makes you happy. Your eyes are closed but the only thing you see are your friends, each one of them. Friendship is probably the most important thing in your life. You love your friends and get happy as soon as you see them honestly, well mostly. Whenever your brain isn't playing unfair games with you.
You take a deep breath and open your eyes again, you calmed down finally.
You slowly stand up and walk towards the sink of the bathroom, carefully dabbing your tears away with the towel so you don't accidentally smudge your make up. You gotta look good after all.

After a few minutes you leave the bathroom and the first person you see is Jungkook who was just about to the other bathroom.
You gasp a little, tapping his shoulder and smiling a little.
"Jungkook!" You say.
He turns his head to look at you, but you're body froze once you saw the gaze in his eyes.
It's..cold and distant
"What?" He asks, annoyance is very clear in his tone. You take a few steps back, scared because his annoyance is pointed at you.
"I just..wanted to ask why you are ignoring me"
He sighs
"Alice doesn't want me to talk to you anymore" he says. His tone is nonchalant, cold and like he doesn't care about your feelings at all.
You furrow your eyebrows at his words, your heart dropping and pain very evident on your face and tone.
"And..you just said okay?"
He rolls his eyes and nods at your words.
"Yes. It's not that big of a deal, it's not like our friendship was something special anyway"
Your eyes start to fill with tears, one dripping down your cheek faster then you can realize it.
Your heart never hurt this much. He just throws away seven years of friendship for a two month relationship?..
"What?.."
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