Her Eloise

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Taylor's POV

My tour seemed to be approaching sooner than I thought. I was more than excited to be able to perform again on a stage and to be able to see all of my fans again in such a long time. Although, this time it is different. I have a little girl to look after and worry about while I'm on stage. I'm putting her in the trust of others for a long time. I know that my family will be coming a long with me for most shows, but still not all. I created a schedule on when Eloise would be joining me on tour and who would be coming along with her and also the other way around when she would stay home. 

I'm grateful that her school has been really accommodating with my schedule and also hers now. I don't want to take her away from her education just because of my job, but her teacher let me know what days she would be able to miss where they wouldn't be doing much in her class. I know that Eloise is really excited to see me on stage. It's not that she has never seen me perform, but this will be the first time she will most likely remember it. 

"Come here you little monster! Did you have fun with Auntie Blake and Inez today?" I ask her as I help take her off her converse. 

Blake had offered to watch Eloise for a couple hours while I could do some housework and also get some time for myself. I know that I have people to clean my house for me, but that's every other week while I do light cleaning everyday. 

"Yes! We got to bake and make lots of goodies, I even brought you some!" Eloise exclaims, pulling out a bag of cookies and cupcakes from her bag. 

I chuckled as she excitingly showed me her goodies and smothered her face in kisses as she tried to get away.  Eloise hurries off to the living room, jumping onto the couch and immediately grabs the remote, turning the T.V. on. I've been wanting to limit her screen time, but times like this - I really didn't mind. She had been out all day and she could use some down time. 

I decided to start heating up the food in the oven. It was getting to that time where Eloise needed to eat right after some quiet time or else she might fall asleep until the morning. 

"Baby, do you want milk or juice with your dinner?" I ask from the kitchen. 

Eloise turns her little head to look at me and makes a little thinking face, "Milk!" she exclaims.

I pour some milk in her cup and start plating up our food. It's important for me that we eat together and just chat. Especially with me going on tour soon, I wanted to spend as much time with her as possible and just chit chat with my girl.

Soon, I hear small footsteps running over into the kitchen and see Eloise making a funny face at me as she watches me. I carefully hand her, her plate and tell her to go sit down at the table. She slowly walks over, basically dragging her feet to not spill her plate and climbs into her designated seat. 

After we ate, I noticed her eyes were starting to get drowsy, a perfect time to start her night routine. I usually like to take some more time for ourselves during night time, but it seemed like this wasn't the case tonight. I was happy that Eloise gets to play with Blake's kids basically whenever she wants to and also has the ability to go to school and see other kids. 

I've already seen the drastic change that has made on my daughter since she started going to school and how outgoing she is. Eloise is the first to ask someone if they want to be her friend and the first to ask the quiet kid if they're okay.

"You ready for bed, baby?" I ask, carrying her up the stairs. 

Although she might seem like she's very independent, she never turns down wanting to get carried by her mommy. I go into her bathroom, handing her her toothbrush so she could brush her teeth and I go grab her pajamas from her closet, while she's doing so. I quickly get her changed, helping her wash her face and apply lotion onto her face and body. I give her some much needed cuddles as we lay on her bed. 

"I love you sooo much, Mommy," she sighs, grabbing onto my face. At this point, I almost wanted to cry, but held it in as I looked into her bright baby blue eyes. Her father doesn't deserve her.

"Mommy loves you so much more, more than anyone else in the whole universe! Don't you ever forget that my Eloise," I assure her, giving her a kiss on the cheek.

And with that, my sweet girl drifted off into a deep sleep. I stayed in her bed for a few minutes, just admiring her. I still needed to organize her belongings and get started on packing her bags on what I was bringing with me and what was going to be given to my parents. 

I sighed, sitting back down onto my own bed, thinking about what had happened earlier today while she was gone. I ignored his calls, his text messages. I couldn't stand to hear his voice after what he did, what he did to her. How could her own father talk so badly about her? 

Already, at such a young age Eloise doesn't want to see or talk to her father and I don't blame her. I don't even try and fake it by talking highly of him, she knew the truth; she knows who has been there for her. I messaged my lawyer, telling him about her father trying to get in contact with me. I have full custody of Eloise and I would forever have that. 

"Mommy?" I hear as my door opens. 

Eloise stands, holding onto her blanket as she rubs her eyes. She slowly walks over to me, wrapping her arms around my legs. I pick her up, engulfing her in a big hug as we laid down in my bed. I didn't notice it until she started wiping my tears that I was crying. 

"Don't be sad, I'm here now," she mumbles, falling back asleep.

I start tearing up again as she says that. I turn the lights off, pulling the covers over both of us as I hold her tightly, kissing her head.

"That's right, I'm okay because you're here."