Make You Mine | J. Jungkook

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐢𝐯𝐞

⟹ Jungkooks POV

"What?.." She asks, her voice laced with disbelief, but the most I can get out of it is pain.
My heart aches as I see that one, single tear dripping down her cheek. I don't want this. I don't want to be so mean to her..she doesn't deserves that and I'm just being a complete asshole right now.
My fingers twitch, I can't deny the urge to reach out to wipe that tear away, pull her into my arms and say that I don't mean any of that...but I need to make Alice happy, don't I?
"You heard me. Our friendship isn't anything special, it never meant so much to me anyways. I don't know why you are crying" I keep my voice cold, low and quiet only to hide the overwhelming feeling of tears threatening their way out of my eyes.
"You're.." she takes a shaky breath, her hands slightly starting to tremble. She's scared, hurt and just in complete disbelieve and I could swear I never hated myself more then right now.
"I..I hate you" she says, looking into my eyes for a few seconds, desperately trying to search for something. To search the guilt in my eyes, but just before I could say something I saw her turning around and walking, nearly running out of the school. I wanted to walk after her, tell her that she means everything to me but then I felt someone grabbing my arm.

"Hey, baby. Did you do it?" Alice says with a smirk while her eyes follow her figure, running and crying.
"Yeah.." I answer quietly, looking down at the ground and biting the inside of my cheek.
I hurt her. Me. I hurt one of the most important things in my life because of a relationship. I love Y/n, as a friend, of course and I hurt her? She cried because of me. Her hands trembled because of no one but me. She said that she hates me..I'm..Who the hell am I?
"Good. She deserved it..she's always so close to you and I don't like that. I think that she has a crush on you, you know? She's a whore for even thinking like that when you obviously are mine" Alice says. Spoiled. She's so damn spoiled.
My gaze is locked with hers but right now, I want nothing more then to yell at her. Who does she think she is to call Y/n a whore? She's my girlfriend but does she really think that Y/n is a whore? I don't think that Y/n has feelings for me, but even if she did..she wouldn't be a fucking whore.
"A what?" I remark. My voice has a strange edge, it's filled with anger but I couldn't care less right now.
"A whore and a bitch. Oh, come on, Baby don't be like that..don't be mad at me, please"
I look at her, into her fake pleading eyes which only pisses me off even more. God, I can't take it anymore.
"You only care about yourself, don't you? Like the whole world only revolves around you and you only. Do you even hear yourself talking?! I hear nothing but bullshit. Y/n isn't a whore and I swear to god, if you say that one more time I'm going to yell at you in front of this whole damn school" I say, seriously.
Alice looks at me and her expression falters but in a rather surprised way. There isn't any hint of hurt in her eyes, not even guilt and that's when I realized that she never even loved me. God, how could I be so blind?
"What?.."
"You heard me. I'm tired. I'm tired of your constant nagging, you acts of making me feel guilty whenever you did something wrong, your giving me nothing while I give you everything I can, I'm tired of you. Were over, go play with another guys feelings, go annoy someone else, go fuck someone else and make their life a living hell but not mine. Just leave me alone you fucking whore"
I say just before I yank my arm away from her grip and start walking out of the school, leaving her there, dumbfounded.
"And you're the worst I've ever had in bed" I add, glaring at her before completely leaving the school and running over to Y/n's home.
"I'm..WHAT?!"

⟹ Your POV

I'm sitting on my bed, curled up in my sheets as the tears fall down my cheeks like an instinct. Did he really mean that? I'm scared.
What if he doesn't wants to see me every again? But that's not the Jungkook I know.
He would never really mean that..would he? I mean, his friends are the most important thing in his life and he's told me so many times before he important I am to him. I know it when people lie, I'm very observant especially about body language and he never lied whenever he told me how important I am to him. Jungkook is that type of person who cuts out the people in his life immediately after he starts to hate or don't like them and he's been staying with me for over seven years.
I could swear that his eyes glimmered with guilt after he told me that our friendship was never special, he knows that he's dumb for even saying that. It's just..I'm still so afraid because shit happens in my brain, man.
Was the whole friendship just a lie which I've been oblivious to?

I hear my phone buzzing and I already know that it's Sunhi and Dambi who texted me, which were followed by every one of my friend group..except Jungkook.
I want to text back and say that I'm fine but I don't have any motivation to do so, I don't want to lie about how I am but I also don't want to say the truth, so I just say nothing at all. It's always like that, I never ignore on purpose and I never did. I know it whenever people text me but often I just feel way too bad to answer, which I know only leads to them worrying more but I just can't help it. It's something I've done since I can text.

Suddenly, I hear something being thrown at my window. It's something that only Jungkook does, my eyebrows furrow and I feel my heart aching for a seconds. I hesitate for a few minutes, but my curiosity and hope gets the best out of me so I stand up and walk towards the window, my nose red and my eyes puffy with tears.
I sniff and look down, seeing Jungkook who is looking up at me with tears in his eyes. Why is he crying? He shouldn't be crying. I don't want him to cry. He does not deserve that.
"Do you let me in?" He asks, his voice filled with guilt and a tiny bit of hope.
I look at him for a few seconds before sniffing again and nodding slowly, starting to walk downstairs towards the front door.
He's standing in front of me, his eyes scanning my face as his gaze gets guiltier and guiltier each second which only makes me feel guilty for even crying in the first place.
I wanted to say something, so ask why he's here and why he said that but my words caught in my throat once he immediately pulled me into his embrace, wrapping his arms tightly around me and placing his chin on the top of my head.
"I'm so sorry..I'm so damn sorry.." he mumbles, sincerely. His tone is laced with pain and guilt, like he's about to cry.
My heart aches at his words, his warm and Oh, so comfortable embrace feels like a warm and soft blanket, the one that protects you from every harm. My under lip quivers and just after that, my tears fall down on his shirt, letting my guard down for once.
I bury my face into his chest and sob quietly, my shoulders rising and falling with each shaky breath I take. "Why did you say that then? Is that damn relationship more worth to you then our over seven years friendship??"I say, my words quiet muffled by his chest and filled with worry and fear, slightly anger as well.
"Hey hey..shh..look at me" he says, quietly and softly yet guilty while he placed both of his hands on my cheeks, cupping them ever so gently and wiping my tears away with his thumb while I'm looking into his eyes.
"Y/n..I don't know what I thought when I said that. I didn't mean it, hell I'd rather kill myself then mean something related to that ever in my life towards you. I didn't want to hurt you, I know I did and I know that there isn't any way to apologize to you with only words..but I want you to know that you mean the world to me and Alice? I broke up with her. I couldn't take it anymore..she was bad to me and I didn't care about that but she made me hurt you and that's something I will never forgive her and myself..ever. I don't care if she hurts me in any way but seeing you so hurt because of what she said to me was just about enough. I don't ever want to hurt you like that ever again and I promise that I will do better..please just don't leave me.."

I listen to his words carefully, trying to hold my emotions back from overflowing. I can see how badly he means that In his eyes..and the fact that he broke up with Alice just because she hurt me made me want to cry even more.
I've never been so relived in my life and also never been this sad at the same time, but in a good way. My face instinctively leans into his touch as I take a deep breath, my hands reaching up to wrap them around his wrists, holding his hands against your cheeks like your life depended on it.
"..really?" I ask quietly, my tears slowly subsiding and now leaving a tear stained, red and puffy yet sulky expression.
"Yes, really..I mean everything just said" He says while looking into my eyes, which caught the way that he was trying to suppress a small smile at my action. I let out a long huff, a small and sulky pout appearing on my face as I look to the side and then down.
"I..I forgive you.." I mumble, causing him to smile and his eyes to lit up like the ones of a little child who just got happy.
"Really?.." He asks
"Yeah..but..but you need to keep your hands here" I mumble, signaling on his hands which are cupping your cheeks. He nods hysterically and let's out a soft hum.
"Anything for you, princess"  He teases, causing you to roll your eyes but nonetheless your heart was fluttering in your chest just before you sniff again and hide your face into his chest, your eyes shining with still present tears.

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