We found us | Book 1

Mixed feelings

Tom:
Evi sits down at the kitchen table while I look for the first aid kit.
When I finally find it, I put it on the kitchen table and open it, looking for something to clean the scratches on her face and arms.

"That's not necessary."
"It is." I say while I put the gauze to the bleeding scratch on her forehead. She makes a painfull face and pulls back a little.
"Sorry." I whisper in a caring voice as I continue with her other scratches.

"What happened?" I ask when I'm almost done with the last one on her arm.
"Did you know?" She asks me while she looks into my eyes.
"Know what?"
"About Bill and Brenda?"
"What about them?"

"That they used to have sex.."
"They never had sex. Well, now they probably do bu-"
"Brenda told me." she interrupts me. "And I believe her."
"Bill never told me that, are you sure? Brenda is not someone to trust."

"Apparently Bill isn't either." She whispers.
"I thought he was different."
"Hey," I caress her cheek and lean forward, forcing her to make eye contact with me.
"Bill is an idiot for letting you go."

I lean in a little more and place my lips on hers.
I pull her up from the chair, our lips tightly pressered together.
As if we can read each others minds we open our mouths a little at the same time.
I caress her tongue with mine and let my hands slowly slide over her back.

I force myself to stop the kiss and open my eyes, looking into hers.
"Let's get you to bed."
She looks at me with a grin on her face and starts walking towards the door. "You coming?"
I nod and start walking. It's like she looks more beautiful every time I see her, I don't know how that's even possible.

I follow her into her room and from the moment the door closes behind us she throws herself at me and starts kissing me intensely.
For a moment I give in to my feelings, for the urge to feel her body close to mine, the urge to touch her and to feel her skin on mine.

I manage to stop the kiss and pull away a little.
"We have to stop doing this." I say, trying to make it sound like I mean it, but my body language says something different.
Our bodies are so close to each other that I can feel her warm breath on my face.

The way she looks at me eagerly, makes me wanna rip every piece of clothing off her body.
"Why?" She asks, still a little out of breath from the intense kiss we just shared.
"It's just sex, right?" She looks at me with a little smile on her face, pulling her face away from mine a little more.

"What if it's not?"
"Don't be silly, Tom." She laughs, but stops when she sees my serious face. I look away by lowering my eyes and pull my hands away from her body.
"You have feelings for me?" She mumbles.
"I think so." I stammer.
"You think so?"

"I don't know okay? I don't know. I like you, Evi. But I know you are in love with Bill. I know you just had sex with me as some type of revenge or as a distraction. I didn't mind, at first." I rattle while I make eye contact with her again.
From the moment I'm done talking she looks away.

Shit, I fucked up. I should've kept my mouth shut! Idiot!
"Sorry, I should go." I turn around to walk away but she grabs my hand. I look at her a little confused.
"Please, don't go."
"It's okay, Evi. I know you don't have feelings for me."

"What if I do?" She pulls me closer to her by my hand. "It's not just sex."
"But you love Bill."
She nods. "I do.." she whispers. "But I do have feelings for you."
"One more reason to stop doing this." I say while I got closer to her, doing the opposite of what I just said.

"We should stop." She says, longing audible in her voice and she puts her face closer to mine, barely touching my lips with hers, locking her eyes with mine.
"Let's stop tomorrow." I say with a hoarse voice.
"Tomorrow." She agrees with me.

I eagerly press my lips against hers and run my hand through her hair.
I just can't help it, the urge to feel her is too strong. The kiss is intense and passionate, but soft and loving at the same time.

We help each other out of our clothes and I lay her down on the bed while I crawl on top of her, our lips only parted if needed.
My hand slides down her naked body. I gently let my finger slide inside her and I can feel she is already wet.

A soft moan leaves her mouth, stopping our kiss.
I pull my hand away and as she clamps her arms and legs around me I thrust inside her, making the space between us as small as possible.
I slowly and gently move my hips while soft moaning fills the room.

I place my face in her neck, in an attempt to smother another moan.
Pleasure rushes through my entire body, but I don't want this moment to end yet. I wanna enjoy this intense feeling for as long as possible, so I stop moving.

I press my lips on hers and open my mouth, gently pushing my tongue in her mouth. She willingly opens her it and I gently caress her cheeks as we get involved in yet another passionate kiss.

I start moving my hips again, just a little, but just enough to make me feel pleasure through my entire body.
Not wanting to cum yet, I stop moving again, but just being inside her is too much.

I feel her tensing her muscles tighter, which makes it even harder to hold back.
"Oh god," I moan softly as she starts moving her hips under me. At the same pace I move my hips together with hers.

The moans are getting louder and in a flash I remember we are not alone in this house so I press my lips against hers, trying to smother the sound.

I push my hips tightly against hers, forcing her to stop moving, I wanna hold back one last time, enjoy this just a little longer.
"Tom," she moans between our lips. "please."
Oh god, I love it when she moans my name.

I start moving my hips again, a little faster and more firmly this time.
She starts shaking under me and she clamps her arms and legs tighter around me.

As her moans are getting louder I put my hand on her mouth, trying to muffle the sound. I place my face in the crease of her neck, trying to smother my own moans as I finally allow myself to reach my orgasm.