Zindagi Ki Kashish 18+

✨Afnan's past✨

Afnan's pov

As I was in plane, my thoughts, my past was killing me like anything.. I never knew I'll be this heartless, I'll be so drowned in my thought of revenge that I'll end up hurting a innocent girl like anything...

"I still remember the smell of smoke and blood, the sound of screams echoing in my mind. It's been years, but the pain remains, a constant reminder of what I lost.

My parents, my little sister... all gone. Taken from me by the hands of Mishfa's brother.

I was just a teenager, helpless and aid-less. I couldn't save them. The guilt and anger consumed me, burning a fire that's yet to be extinguished.

Mr. And Mrs. Alvi adopted me, and from that day they were my only parents, I studied hard only to found who was he and why he did that..

I spent years tracking down the culprit, training myself to be strong, to be a force to be reckoned with. I became a cop, a means to an end, a way to get close to the truth.

But it wasn't just about justice. It was about revenge. I wanted to make him pay for what he did to my family.

And then I met Mishfa. Innocent, beautiful Mishfa. I didn't plan to fall for her, but she crept into my heart, making me question everything.

But the past won't let me go. It haunts me, reminding me of what I've lost, what I've yet to gain. I'm trapped between my desire for revenge and my love for her.

Can I ever find redemption? Or will the darkness of my past forever define me?"

"I remember the day I found out who killed my family. It was like a punch to the gut, leaving me breathless and numb. Mishfa's brother, the same person I'd been searching for all these years, was the culprit.

I felt a mix of emotions: anger, hatred, and a deep sense of betrayal. How could he do this to my family? And how could Mishfa not know about her brother's actions?

I knew then that I had to get close to her, to use her to get to her brother. But as I got to know her, I realized she was innocent, a pawn in her brother's game.

My heart ached for her, and I found myself torn between my desire for revenge and my growing feelings for her. I knew I couldn't keep using her, but I couldn't stop myself either.

And then those rivals of mine was planning to attack her. Imagining how much she'll be suffering because of me, it was like reliving the nightmare of my past all over again.

I knew I had to leave, to protect her from myself and my toxic desire for revenge. But as I walked away, I knew I was leaving behind a part of myself, a part that I might never get back."

I wasn't knowing about all this before falling in love with her but after I came to know this it was all end and shattered in just some minutes..

"I know it sounds cruel, but my revenge was always going to win. It's been burning inside me for years, a fire that's consumed me whole. I thought loving Mishfa would change that, but it only made it worse.

Every moment I spent with her, every smile, every laugh, it all reminded me of what I'd lost. My family, my innocence, my peace. Her brother took it all away, and I couldn't let that go.

Loving Mishfa was a weakness, a distraction from my purpose. I couldn't let myself be swayed by emotions when justice was within reach. I had to see it through, no matter the cost.

Mishfa was a pawn in my game, a means to an end. I used her, yes, but I couldn't help myself. My desire for revenge is a poison, and it's consumed me completely.

I know I'll lose her now, and it hurts more than I thought possible. But I'd rather live with the pain of losing her than the pain of not avenging my family.

Revenge may not bring them back, but it's all I have left. And I'll see it through, no matter what."

"I remember the day I met Mishfa, I knew she was different. Her smile, her laugh, it was like a ray of sunshine in my dark world. For the first time in years, I felt alive.

But I couldn't let myself be swayed. I had a mission, a purpose. And I couldn't let love get in the way.

I used her, manipulated her, and lied to her. And every time I did, it chipped away at my soul. But I couldn't stop.

I was addicted to my revenge, and I couldn't quit. Even when I knew it would cost me the one person who truly cared for me.

Now, as I walk away from her, I feel the weight of my choices bearing down on me. I've lost her, and I've lost myself.

But I'll see it through. I'll make sure she'll not pay for deeds of her brother but yes I had to do it for my revenge I had to hurt her so I did. And maybe, just maybe, I'll find some semblance of peace.

But deep down, I know it's a lie. Revenge won't bring me peace. It'll only bring more pain.

And I'll be left with nothing but the ashes of what could have been."

I knew everything what I did, and I still don't know what I'll be going to do next... Besides my revenge the love of mine for mishfa was real.. I did it from all my heart until I came to know my family's murderer is his brother as I came to knew this news it was an all end of my love world, an end to my lover era..

I know I'll not be able to love any girl from now on, the place which belongs to mishfa will always belong to her and only her but our fates cannot interwine us, may be in another universe I can have her as my love, as my wife, as my everything..

It was still hard to believe that everything came to an end so soon this wasn't expected at all... My mind was still thinking about how she had been reacted when she came to know I left, I don't if arhan picked her up or not as soon flight lands I need to call him and ask about this..

All this things were continuing in his mind while his journey..

(AFNAN don't know about mishfa's accident or anything)

On the other hand mishfa the poor soul was suffering from everything alone. Fighting for her life.. those 48 hours will be so crucial and important.
Will mishfa be able to wake up?
What will she do after knowing about her brother's deed and afnan's revenge?
How afnan will react, after knowing about mishfa's accident?

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