Mad God's Love [Dark, enemies-to-lovers BL]

17 R 2

I should probably entice him to gnaw on me. He must have figured out I'm bad for the stomach, hence the lyrical pause, but with just a little brute force everything was possible. He could power through and make me edible again. As far as he knew.

He could suspect, but wouldn't know I'd immediately die upon such attempt. Just disintegrate the same way rest of this formerly sagacious goop did. Was that why he was idling? Waiting on confirmation. Or just lamenting loss of a pet project. His body parts? Does he even have concept of loss? Because surely the alien creature did not share in our most glaring human flaws.

Was I not even worth the effort? Ah. There was that. He had looked right through me once before. Now I was but a leftover refuse from an animal he'd already beaten. Did I still count as a mouth if there was no controlling organism to be attached to? What a thing to be having existential crisis over.

So that was it. Final bit of my fuck you plan would not come to fruition. What a nasty oversight. I burned to ask about how things ended on their end. Did Snail complete shredding every mention of me? Or did it half-ass it, too? Was it happy to be reunited at last?

Since I was an inconsequential nonentity here, what the fuck was he idling around for? My legs fell asleep a while ago and I didn't want to cradle twitching corpse anymore.

"Get them out of here, they don't deserve to rot underground," I finally grated out. The tilting rocks glistened as something wet glided along them. Pressure at the back of my neck increased tenfold and not with atmospheric pressure. Demon finally decided on a fool proof way to make me eternally suffer and the insolence just kicked it off into action. I clutched my emotional support cadaver tighter and made it leak worse.

I'll pay for all of this, won't I? But I had the right to fight back. To take my revenge. I wasn't just a pebble to be kicked around. Right?!

Of all the things, I felt fear. There was no more indignation or fury. I did all I could and it was equivalent of spitting in rich man's face. Retribution always hurt. I was sure the failsafe wouldn't really work anymore, he'd taken it into consideration and found ways around. I gripped something sharp in my hand. I could just stab myself in the throat and force him to eat me. Maybe that would derail some of prep process? I'd either die and if not, I'd at least try something.

Rocks around all cracked and bent, but none fell. The cavern was encased in a glistening and undulating layer. My ears popped. When all the noise stopped and cords untwined, cold hit me like a bat. I inhaled fresh air and froze the lungs solid. It wasn't long until I shivered like an autumn leaf. There were none of those, just heaps upon heaps of snow. In the middle of nowhere. Mountains on the horizon line. I've never even seen that in my life. There weren't any anywhere near where I grew up. Where the fuck was this?

The final solution my mucky hand held felt so light. Without overthinking it, struck my throat. I felt pain and pressure, but critical mass was caught by some thread and I couldn't pull my instrument any further. I tracked it to the source and saw blond man instead of a faceless monstrosity.

"Where do you think you're off to? You're all that's left," drenched man said looking right at me. Dour stare, stark tone, weight of puny mortal's sins and the northern wind made me shake like sick man. There was that. Most major oversight. It didn't need to dig under my skin to make me suffer. Plenty of people managed that without superhuman abilities just fine.

I had an urge to apologise profusely and beg for forgiveness, as though that ever helped. Animal inside of me wanted to live, but mercifully the words wouldn't come out. I'd keep my worthless pride for few minutes longer.

"Why do you reek of fear now? After all that," even the words were served like a cup of iced contempt. Somehow it was easier to mouth off at an unfeeling, stony presence. This man was an unknown stranger capable of everything.