It doesn't matter.

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•Melina POV•

It doesn't Matter, Life decided to give me this Fucked up life. It was a spin in the wheel, It's funny how my mother told me She tried to kill me with a hanger when she found out she was pregnant with me, I guess she wanted to be free in her 20s, But sadly the hanger missed me and this is how I ended, How I know?

She literally told me while she was high off her mind, giggling her trauma out, But whatever. When I was younger I remembered my father was never home, So my mom would whore around instead being loyal to my father.

My father was always at work, so I barely saw him, My mom always bought a new guy saying, "Melinny! This is mommy friend!" I used to look upon my mom, My so called hero I even fucking forgive her my scar on right eye causing it to go blind, How did I go blind well..Let's say Mother got high on meth and thought I was a Robber and pour hot water on my eye.

How fucking annoying my life is, I got a shitty mom and father that doesn't know how to take care a simple child..but, it doesn't matter it's life we continued living on like walking on a rope until you cut it.

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The clock ticks on the wall, I chew my bottom lip As I tapped my pen against the wooden desk. I looked up at the clock, A few more minutes until fifth period. I looked down on my paper "how annoying, I didn't even study, fuck." I mumble under my breath, DINGGG!! The bell rang.

I stuff my paper in my bookbag, As I rushed my ass up Running to fifth period, I walked down the crowded hallways as People shoved each other, only five minutes to arrive to class, I walked upstairs as I entered class in time.

I sat down in the back, I guess to be on my phone. After a few minutes I saw an girl rushing in, panting and running out of breath as she looks down at her paper, A new student..she puts her bookbag down beside her.

The teacher came in, closing The behind them as she stood in front of the class "hello students! As you can see I'm you're new teacher and I'm new here! So please treat me with kindness.." she says shyly "Anywho! My name is Ms.Mini!" She smiles shyly..as she looks around "Let's start attendance" Ms. Mini took her clipboard out calling each students name.

I looked over at the new girl, Ms.Mini calls her name. "Starry are you here?" Ms. Mini look around, The new girl squeaks in embarrassed "Ah! I'm sorry thats me.." She mumbles shyly as she ducks her head. I tapped my finger against my cheek as I eyed her, she was indeed cute.

She had brown golden eyes with brown hair, yet had long eyelashes and cupid lips and a ached nose that matched her perfectly and skin sun kissed. I smiled at her a I lean over at her desk "Seems you're new here right? My name is Melina Lemme show your other classes, it be easy " I asked with a gentle smile.

She blinks at me in surprised but her cheeks turned red "A-Ah thank you that would help me a bunch! " She smiles at me, My heart beats, so they were right love at first sight. Never thought I was the lover type, but seems times changed

I tilt my head "Hm, I'm polish with Mexican what about you?" She smiles "I'm Peruvian." She said as she takes her notebook out and placed it down, Seems she liked the color blue. Especially her bookbag,clothes even nails were blus I chuckle "Seems you like blue? " I asked with a soft hum..she blinks "oh wow, how did you know?" She asked dumbfounded, I let a soft snicker "Well, let's say I'm the mastermind.." I mumble with a smirk..she giggles.

...[tw: drugs]

It was the end of the day. I walked down the sidewalk. What a calm day, usually I would hate it going to school and complain, but not today. Today was different, finally a change at least..right? Hopefully and hopefully it's stays like this. I thought to myself before focusing to my walk home

I took my keys out as I turned the lock. I enter my home as I closed and locked the door behind me..I threw my keys in the used to be cigarette ash tray, but now that's where we put keys. I looked around seeing my mother wasn't here..I bit my lip, should I do it? I looked around the house just in case...

It was empty. Seems I can do it..I walked over to my parents bedroom and walked over to my mom drawer and opened the top drawer, I pulled out my mom prescription. I walked over and sat down on the cold floor, I shiver softly as the cold tile hits my thighs.

I opened the bottle as I took one pill out as I placed it down. I grabbed an knife to smash it down into power and grabbed my school ID, which we never use and line it up..I lower my head and sniff it, like it was nothing..I groan softly "Fuck...shit.." I whisper as I squeeze my eyes shut as the adrenaline goes through me.

I opened my eyes slowly it felt so fucking good, This shit was like horse power..To the point you can feel your eyes roll back..I wiped my nose with a soft sigh. I looked down at the line of power..Maybe more..I thought to myself as I lower my head, as I sniff it all.

I lean back with a soft groan "Fuck. Fuck.." The drugs go through my brain...I pant softly as I wiped off the power off the table. I wiped my nose shamelessly as I stood up weakly before walking to my room slamming the door as I collapse on the bed. Everything goes black.

Suddenly I woke up to an sudden noise as I sat up. I looked over at my wall hearing moans and grunts..I furrow my eyebrows with annoyance, Here we go again..I groan softly as I rubbed my forehead. An headache with already forming. I stood up weakly as I walked over and Opened the bottle of painkillers as I took two without water, as I swallow them down..my breath grows heavy..I grunt softly as I turned on the radio to outhear the noise from my mom whoring around..I flop back in bed, I shut my eyes closed.

The only thing I remember was my mom banging on my door to put my music down.

what a bitch.

1159 words! This is my first chapter! I know it doesn't seem well, but i promise I will get better  •-Natzy!