You made me who I am. || SFW

You made me who I am.

     Please make sure to read the first thing before jumping into this shit show!! Enjoy, this ain't proof read, let me know any mistakes you see :)
     - Min
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3rd person pov

Heejin has known stray kids's Lee know, Changbin, Hyunjin, Han, Felix, Seungmin and Jeongin for a little over 2 years now. He'd go far as to say they're all his best friends! That's all thanks to Heejin coincidentally becoming friends with their leader Bangchan. Heejin's known Chan longer than he has the other guys and Chan was the reason heejin's ever had the motivation to do anything's really.

Heejin's POV

'He's ignoring me...' I thought watching as Chan turned around m his heels realizing non of his members are in the dorm rooms right now. No was was there, except... me. He's been ignoring me for the past two weeks now. Within those two weeks I've been slowly slipping into this weird depressive state, my motivation to do anything slowly fading realizing the person I held such strong feels for is ignoring me. He seemed to be doing it with no reasons as well.. maybe I did something to anger him? Maybe it's because I'm spending more time with his members which takes their attention away from him? I really don't know. I sighed I slumped further into the couch I was glued too. Maybe I should go home? He'd feel better if I left maybe.
After what felt like ages, I finally made my way off the couch and towards his room to bid him goodbye. I finally arrived and decided to tear my luck one last time. I tried hugging him only for him to pull me off, that shattered my very being. I stood there head down trying to school in my emotions and feeling of heartbreak once again. After a beat of silence I decided to break it. "Did.." I breathed. "Did I do something to upset you?.." *I spoke softly trying to keep the sadness from slipping into my voice. I was shock to here him speak to me truly, but it was so void of emotions that not even hearing him helped with the hurt I felt. "No. I'm not upset with you." He started. "I'm just trying to stay away. You'll be better off without me anyways." He said it like it was the easiest thing to spew out so so coldly. "But I'm myself because of you." I breathed out. "Without you, it's... I'm not okay." *I continued.
His voice rose slightly and an emotion was present but I couldn't pin point it. "That's because you rely on me to much!!!" He spat out. "Just.. go find someone else to replace me!! I'm sure it won't be hard!!" I snapped. "No one can replace you.. No one. And never ask that of me either." I lifted my head to look at him my eyes red from trying to stop myself from crying. The rage from hearing those words present in my eyes.
Knowing what his monotone voice might be doing to me he spoke again. "You're making it so much ducking harder to ignore you and to get you to dislike me." Now that, that's confused me. "Why?! Why do you want that so fucking badly?!" I seethed. Because I'm not good enough for you!! I'm not good for anyone!! I'm a nobody." Who told him that. WHO FUCKING TOLD- "who told you that huh?? Are you fucking crazy?!?" "NOBODY DID!! NOBODY HAD TO! I KNOW I AM. I'm useless. A nobody." He yelled out. Tears start to drip from his eyes as well either from sadness of the word he spoke finally sinking in or from anger, anger at how I wasn't letting it go and letting him be. He, however knows me better than that. He really does.
I stay silent watching as the tears all not realizing I started to shed tears as well and spoke "You're not a nobody. Especially to me. To me you're somebody. Somebody special. You have that laugh that bubbles up and makes me smile without even realizing. You're incredibly smart and dedicated, you're eyes hold love everytime you see your band mates perform YOUR songs or songs YOU helped produce. They love you, stays love you. I LOVE YOU DAMN IT. And watching you pull away from me is so heartbreaking I can't take it.. I've lost interest in so much and I... I didn't feel the need to do anything if the one person I love doesn't even see the need to be around me." I ranted. The sound of hiccups coming from him as we both now have tears flowing.
BangChan's eyes widened. He didn't know I had loved him this whole time. He thought i saw us as just good, close friends. I watched as he started to slightly blush, he quickly blinked away his tears and looked at me. "m-min I..." He started. He looked like didn't know what to say. He was speechless. "Good sometimes you're so damn stupid.." I laughed sniffling wiping away at my eyes harshly. BangChan quickly pulled me into a hug, burying his face into the crook of my neck. "Don't. call Me dumb. I've just.. never knew you'd feel the same way I do.. " He said, hugging me tightly. I melted into the hug relishing in the warmth he produced. BangChan gently rubbed circles on my back. After a few minutes, He pulled back for a moment, only to wipe away my tears with a warm smile. He cupped my face and connected my lips with his own. I was by all rights shocked, but soon melted into the kiss too. My eyes slowly slipping shut as we kissed. He broke the kiss and laughed softly. He pulled away and gently picked me up bridal style heading to his room. He dropped me onto his bed both of us laughing and I bounced weirdly onto the bed. He soon made his way onto the bed crawling over and hovering over me, he leaned forward and kiss me again this time passionately and so filled with love. Laying down he pulled me onto his chest where I could hear his heartbeat and the way he breathed. We feel asleep like that. In each other arms peacefully.
If the members came to the dorms and found us like that no one aside from us and then needs to know, and Felix's phone. He may or may not have snapped pictures and teased us about it the next day.