poetry

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notes about him i say to myself:

there will be dozens
even though he looks stunning
seems gorgeous doing anything
talks with a deep voice,
his fingertips running on his arms
there will be dozens like him, girl
so please don't cry over this fuckin stupid mf
because he doesn't deserve it.
and you deserve more.
he made these bizarre moves you've noticed
but never actually took it a little further,
like you imagined*.
so don't wait forever.
don't become his little slut
his second choice.
that one that's gonna forbid herself to look at other men and women,
because she wants to be loyal,
loyal to that prick that's never texting you,
unless you do.
that asshole that even forgets your presence,
unless you don't talk in his face.
that bastard that's making you hope,
by acting strange sometimes, in your opinion**.
i know the thing is that he's one of your closest friends,
but he made you suffer too much,
made you think you were ugly,
made you think that you were too much,
and then,
made you think that you weren't enough***.
he's a great person.
good friend.
remarkably sincere.
relatively beautiful.
but not as great as you thought.
good friend, but more when it comes to fun.
remarkably sincere, but just on certain topics****.
relatively beautiful,... yeah unfortunately i have nothing to say about that.
but you see my point.
he may be great,
but, at the moment
not the best for you.
definitely not.
come on, lyslime.
it's not that hard.
think about it.
you just have to forget him*****.

{*you always knew nothing was gonna happen. you just kept hoping.
**maybe those moves you talk about were a little bit over-interpreted.
***he never really said that out loud, but the way he acted was making you feel that way.
****he's always lying, turning you in a naive teen, cuz you somehow, sometimes, believed him, whitout really thinking about it. you trusted him before, but that's not gonna happen again.
*****yeah. just gotta forget him. even though i love him still. lyslime, you don't love him anymore. you're convincing yourself you do, because you're scared that if you don't, you're gonna forget him. he can still be your friend you know, but stop hoping he'll make a move. thanks. i swear i'll try.
i swear i will.}

you know lyslime,
yeah?
i was wondering, you know, there's this new guy in this new class you're in...

alors 💀💀 je me sens légèrement bipolaire d'écrire ça mais bon...