Sneak Peeks

~ One Last Wish ~ (Warning. A Little Depressive)

Why did life have to drag on?

Why couldn’t it just end?

Why?

Because I couldn’t leave the earth yet, I couldn’t tie that noose, I couldn’t swallow those pills, I couldn’t take the jump, I couldn’t hold that knife to my chest, I couldn’t light that fire, I couldn’t hold that breath, I couldn’t take in that water. I couldn’t do any of this.

Not until I find love.

I just wanted to feel something warm inside for once. Something to look forward to.

That was the only thing keeping me going.

But no guy wants to fall in love with a suicidal.

In my eyes, I’m already dead.

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I wrote this when I was sad.. .-. When the ‘Thing’ happened with my dog. Don’t judge the depressiveness of this story. I found this in my diary, and I had to put it in here. Even If it triggers something. Sorry. I needed to share this. U.U