Rivalry

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Everything is making me uncomfortable. I knew that there would be a lot of people that's going to be in this school, but I never expected that it would be this LOT. The heat index is already killing me, plus the crowd? I can't feel the air anymore!


I sighed heavily, regretting that I even prepared so much for this day.  How prepared? Well, I just spent my last two hours blending my concealer and powder! Only to be wasteful because the temperature is melting my make up away. 


A lot of people have been criticizing me for putting a lot of effort on making myself presentable, I always look at them with a judging face and ask myself a question, "Who wouldn't want to look presentable?" And they would always counter me with the saying, "But you're a boy." I judged them again. So what if I want to look pretty? Can't a boy be pretty? 


I rolled my eyes. Of course they'd answer no. What's new? They're just jealous because I'm fairer than them. I just know that I going to get a lot of judgement today.


Today's my first day of school. Senior High School to be precise. I can't believe I survived Junior High. It's currently eleven in the morning, and like me, everyone is juts waiting for the bell to ring so that they could go to their classroom. I'm actually so close to stomping my feet and throw a tantrum. I'm just fighting the urge because people here might actually judge me. My room's in third floor! How unlucky can I more be? I've already looked through the school, and I'm telling you. The canteen's far from our department, and considering that I'm in a high floor, I just want to die.


I flinched when someone tapped my back. I turned to my back and saw my friend, Gwyneth. I raised my brow at her, asking her what she wants.


"Papunta na raw sina Mika." She inquired. "Pupunta na rin pala ako sa department namin." She added that made my forehead knot.


"What? Bakit?" I asked her in a whispering tone. "Nagpupuntahan na 'yung mga kaklase ko, I think? Nandoon na rin si James eh, baka mamaya ma-late pa ako. Bye!" She answered and waved her hands at me, I looked at her, pleading.


"Wait mo na lang si Mika!" I watched her as she disappeared from my sight. I sighed again. Wow, now I am totally alone.


What am I supposed to do now? I don't blend well with the crowd. I have a circle. And they're the only people that I consider as my friends. They don't make me feel unwanted, they're always considering my feelings, and they don't care what I am.


I am discreetly and a closeted homosexual. People judge me for my feminine actions every time, they will always call me, "sayang" or even more offensive words. And as time goes by, I learned to just not care at all. Although people call me gay, I know deep inside that I am. I am romantically attracted to boys, but I don't confess that I am what they say. I'm really not ready yet.


Time passed and Mika arrived. Dahil nga Senior High na kami, we're now seperated because of our chosen strand. Mika, on the other side, is in the same section as me because we're both HUMSS and we picked out the same course that we're going to take when we reached college. Some of our friends are HUMSS too, they're just in a different section. 

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