FarFarAway from Daydream to Freefall ᵗˣᵗ ᵃᵘ²

ꍟꉓꃅꂦ ꂦꎇ ꅏꂦꋪꀸꌗ

𝒯𝒶ℯ𝒽𝓎𝓊𝓃 

The light never felt like such a trap... blinding me, towering me... distracting my focus from the screams of terror and cries for help coming from behind the door; horror freezing my distressed soul, guilt squeezing my heart. I couldn't move and the bitter taste of his lips judged all my claims that hurt him on my way to save the twin flame. 

Yet they were still there... trying to reach us, their voices trapped in curses, blood and crackling fire. 

"Beomgyu, open the damn door!" 

I need to help them... I despaired, tried to break free from his kisses, but my neck fell into the shackles of his hands. 

"Are you kidding me, Taehyun?" Beomgyu's breath chilled my chin, his greenish eyes obliged me - you are the one in need. Now listen to me... listen carefully. 

"Me? Be the same as you? Hardly that... It is all about you, Yeonjun and the hero complex limiting your minds. Soobin's suffering is all your fault," the outraged dryad scolded me. 

"I wanted to help him out of it...," I gulped, my Adam's apple moved against his palm - let me breathe. 

"Out of what anyway?" a disappointed smirk appeared in the corners of his lips and eyes, as he pushed more on my neck, "you said you'd tell me everything you knew. We've all dealt with the reason for Yeonjun's anxiety, but did anyone bother to tell me that it started with Soobin? My lifeline..." 

"I just wanted to protect you from the demon... the less you knew, the more likely it would leave you alone," I defended myself.

"... but in the end it was that ignorance that endangered me! I wasn't blind, I have an intuition... I felt it all inside, and that demon hooked me in a weak moment anyway... it even took advantage of my best friend." 

I'm really sorry for that... I'm so sorry for Heeseung... 

"It tried to divide us...," and I didn't know about it at first... am I also a victim in that case? I felt the tears melting again the sadness soaked in my stiff cheeks. 

"You know... Tae... that's exactly why I have wings and not you. How could you fly with such a weight pulling you down?" 

"That's enough, Beomgyu," Hyuka's caring voice came to us from somewhere I couldn't see. 

"Does even Kai know about everything you do know about? How many secrets and lies are hidden in your mind?" 

I weakly shook my head. 

"Who's the real liar, Taehyun?" 

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Me - that simple word hung on my parted trembling lips, when I opened my teary eyes to wake up from the accusing dream. 

If I had been faster... if I had talked to Yeonjun sooner and we hadn't tried to fight alone, we'd still have to end up here... but at least we wouldn't be torn apart... That's what I thought when I found myself lying on my back... alone in an unknown place, looking up at the dark green sheet high above me. It was already night again.

Will we ever be the same as before?

The flickering orange candlelight tried to chase away my shadows, pressing on my chest, and caress my regret-soaked cheeks, while the comforting aroma of roasted fish and vegetables gently crept into my nose and constricted throat to release it. 

I sat up and hugged my hungry stomach, looking around. 

My sense of smell led me straight to a long table, on which was not only a plate of food and countless candles, but also a pile of books and papers, leading my eyes to the person who was bending over them.