The waves of the kiss

Never let me go

Sunday , September 8 2023
Niki
After the argument we both had, I haven't talk to him, yet. We both have been avoiding each other, at first I was affected by the situation but then I started to feel more relaxed than before. I still miss his presence but my pride is not letting me be myself or apologize to him. But I really can't blame it on my pride, I just want to talk to him, it's not that easy when I walk over to him and he just runs away.

So a friend of mine will help me, or we'll just give me tips , I asked him some help because he got a nice boyfriend, and I think he got some experience. I've already met him and his boyfriend, And he looks like a cute kitty, well both of them look like the cat couple. He told me to meet him at the park in the morning before the school bell rings. So I packed my things for school.

"Niki, where are you going this early?" I heard a sweet voice calling me with a smile, I turned around and smiled back as I see who was standing there with me. "Oh mom, it's not that early it's just 6, and I'm going to meet up with a friend." A little laughed came out of my mom's mouth, I just stand there waiting for her to get another reaction from her. "Ejem..." I interrupt my mom form her 'laugh time' .

She just looked at me with a sassy look I just stayed there waiting for an answer. She just signed and shrugged her shoulders to say it, no need of words. "Is that friend a girl?" I was surprised that she said that, because I never talk to her about girls just sunoo and friends, and she still hasn't got the idea of it. I sighed at her and shook my head at her as an expression of dissatisfaction. "No mom, it's a friend."

She just nodded her head and smiled, she came closer to me to give me a kiss on my cheek. "Well mom can I go now? I'm late." She just nodded and pointed at the front door of my house. "Bye mom." "Bye sweetheart."

Niki
I got to the park where I will meet my friend, I got to a bench to sit down and wait for him. As I wait for him I saw a familiar figure walking. It was Jay hyung. "Jay hyung!" I shouted to get his attention. As I shouted his face snap back to look at me, as he saw who I was he put on a bright smile. "Hello niki, how are you?" Jay said to me with a lovely smile and a very nice smile, he came closer to give me a hug.

"I'm good Jay but I just need you to help me, or just give me tips..." I was very embarrassed to say it to him about this relationship I have with sunoo and how we fought for something I found dumb..but I got to understand him and his feelings. But I can't understand him, so I need help. "Good to hear niki, so tell me what's your problem?" Jay said to me as he came to sit down with me on the bench after the hug.

Jay does know about my relationship with sunoo, he's been very supportive and knows sunoo family members and mine also. He has always been there for me and I appreciate that. So I got trust in him by telling my problems and also he has told me his problems, but I think this is a serious problem. "Well sunoo and me fought, and now he doesn't want to talk to me. I tried talking to him but he's not letting me."

I told him what was bothering me with sunoo, he just seems to be quiet for a minute trying to analyze an answer for me. "Go on." That is the only thing he said to me as I just took a deep breath to control my emotions. "He thought about having a little break about our relationship..." I silently said with a sad smile. Jay was shocked about that. I've never told him anything about breaking up with sunoo or anything.

"And did you say something that might trigger him to say something like that. Like breaking up?" Jay said with a serious expression and I stop for a moment and thought of something I might have done. "Well yeah..I said it's hard to keep up with it, and he said it's better a girl and a boy..." I put my head down thinking why did I tell him that, that must have hurt him, I always knew sunoo was sensitive but I didn't think when I said that.

"Well and why did you say it was hard to keep up with it? " I again stop looking down and raised my head up to see Jay with a questionable expression on his face waiting for me to answer, but a sighed was all I could give him. But then I decided to give him an answer. " I was tired of being a secret, I wanted to show my parents and the world I was with sunoo, and I wanted to be free. " I felt all the pressure on my chest to away when I said what I wanted to say all the time I was with sunoo. I can't go on with this.

Sunoo
It's been a long day, it's only the morning, and it's school day, but it's still early, it's 6 am. Usually I start running early but today I didn't feel like it but I want to keep my schedule nice and clean. So I just put my running clothes and got out of my room, I saw my parents argue again on their room, but I didn't want to hear them shout at useless things.

I got my headphones and walked down the stairs and walk to the door of my house, as I got out I put some music to concentrate on running. It was so calm. And more calmer was when I hear...: Bonfire - Wave to earth. Why can my love be like this song? Sometimes I think love was not created for me.

I ran into a close park close to my house, as o ran close by I saw 2 familiar persons, it was niki and Jay hyung. What are they doing here? I stopped and saw niki stressed face, I just didn't feel anything, I don't know. My heart beated when I saw him but now I feel nothing , just a whole who needs to be fixed. I wanted him again, in my heart.

I can't love him anymore, I don't want to love him anymore, I don't like him, I don't want him close. I want to stay away from him.