"Mom I'm going inside my room" I said
I go inside my cold and lovely room with the walls black and only the light of my computer.
I started to write this right now we'll today was normal I had to leave the house I only have 10 more days left but you know what I'm kind of sad and scared at the time but I know what I'm about to do is right.if I stay I'm only going to cause pain to the people I love pushing them away from me I won't live life i rather die as give someone else a chance to live life the way I couldn't my family no worries they might cry that day and maybe my funeral too but I know again I sound like I'm being selfish but at least I'm telling truth no lies here I'm just typing the way I feel.
Oops* it's almost midnight we'll you know me mom and dad sister and little sister don't ever forget that when you watch anime I'm going to be by your side don't get scared I'm be there for all you guys watching you from heaven I know this sounds confusing but all I'm saying is don't cry please don't cry while reading this I know my last regret will be not spending my life and enjoying my life ever since I was eight if I tell someone how I feel or if told you guys what I feel your probably say life is hard but stay strong we love you don't ever forget that now haha now I'm crying I could hear your voice mom saying that
cries*
Right now when I see you smile you guys don't know it's my last few days with you all no worries again I'm fine I'm alright it was none of you guys no one actually it was all myself everything I know you guys are going to hate me if I end my life but I thought about this for along time I can't take this anymore I cut myself I hit myself I cried myself to sleep sometimes I never had tears left inside me I just stared up at the sky or the Ceiling with my big light brown eyes you know what my dream was to be a fashion designer your probably never knew and I always showed that I never cared about life and school but I did very much it's sad that the people who bullied me I can't tell the lesson that I learned but you know what someone might will they aren't like me and me no one thinks like me no one talks like me over millions of kids die by bullies family issues themselves car accidents but the most of them all is kids who hate themselves.no one ever felt like me before because I know I was one of a kind thank you mom for everything you've done for me mom keep the hard work and asking don't forget to clean my room like you always do love you.
Dad don't ever stop protecting our family I love you
Sister don't forget to watch all the anime In my list also put away the piano like you said a week ago I love you
Little sister remember don't be a brat to mom follow your dream to be a comedian
Family I always will cherish those moments I had with you
Bullies don't every forget everyone has beauty inside them but exchanged for that we all have to have a piece of a broken heart stay you
Friends although i never seen you you are far away but I'm my heart you were always beside me I love you.
Me I never know now much you loved me or how much you would miss me I love me.....
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Today is the day I'm alone right now I love you sooo much don't ever forget that
The lesson I learned:
Don't ever get fooled by there smile deep Inside them there's a broken heart.
Goodbye.emiii
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2 months later the body was found in a lake.
Don't ever make a mistake in the past it could haunt you forever.
July 18 2016
Her birthday shes in heaven now "happy birthday to you" happy birthday to you. -a friend
