A 𝑲𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒓 tale~ (Killer!Sans story)

[Ch.6]"A living Curse, and a Dying Cure,"

A/N; This chapter does include self-harm and panic attacks.
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"What." I stated more firmly

I tried again, summoning all the DETERMINATION I could muster, or just plain other things, like thinking about it, not thinking about it, dangerous situations, and more!

I tried for a good few hours.

Until...[RESART].

"What?" I say confused, ''What'' might be my favorite word today..' I think it was a purple Button, with the words in cursive, and the box holding the words in had black and red thin lines swirling around it..

I look at it, then smile a closed, innocent smile. "Decoritive- but what the fu -" I don't finish that sentence when I see the box glow brighter then float towards my hand, I look at it blankly, I then press it, only to see a monster pile next to me, lift up, and then turn back to a monster, then look at me in fear, not moving..I then widen my eyes.

"You can turn certain evens back in time. Are they stuck in time?" I question. I walk over to the monster and move around looking it it's eyes, it was a fish monster, a quite ugly one, anyways, the eyes aren't looking at me, I tried to poke the monster, but then I notice it get glitchy, and the monster heads out of whatever trance there in, and looks around then at me, fearfully.

I sigh, then kill the monster.

I walk over to other dust piles with the button and try new things, so their memories are still there, and they don't have very long before the re-dust.

So it can't really change anything besides strike FEAR into their hearts more, it basically teleport them into the spots they where in before, but like-- That's just dumb, Its practically useless, unless I want to strike more fear, and chase after them.

Besides, my EXP or LV will go down once I un-dust them, I'll get it back, But I HAVE to kill them for it to come back, so now I'm at lower EXP then I was before.

I did try new things, like letting them run, tuanting them, and more. But, it really didn't do anything, I do get EXP for killing them again, but it's very little.

I can't do ANYTHING! "Mew!" HUH?

I stop walking in the Snowey forest, and see a cat, a cat with long, soft fur, most of its fur was black, but with white fur on the paws, and on one of the ears. It had two different colored eyes, one green, the other blue, but both of them were very light.

It titled its head at me, with a curious glint in its eye, I could feel my SOUL having trouble in changing, I crouched down slowly and held out my hand, "Hey, Kitty~" I said playfully.

The cat slowly approached, It sniffed my outstretched hand, and then nuzzled into it, I cooed. I saw my SOUL for a second and saw it at the shape of a heart, No wonder I felt happy and guilt ridden.

I looked back at the cat I was petting. "You're such a beautiful kitty," I babied, talked the cat. I eventually got more comfortable with the cat, and the cat got more comfortable with me, I gently and slowly picked up the cat, and I put it in a more comfortable position.

I then assumed that their male. "Yeah, I'm not checking you until you're more comfortable with me.." I said with a sharp smile. I quickly shortcutted us into my home.

I put them down and tapped my chin, I then walked into the kitchen and found two small bowls, and filled one up with water, and the other with 'Temmie Flakes' I then reconsidered the food choice.

"Nah, it's monster food, I don't think it could harm things when its job is healing." I say to myself, then walk back in to find the animal, which looks abnormally skinny, and place the bowls in front of him.

The animal smells the bowls, then the things inside and start drinking and eating to their hearts content, I cooed, I then walk to the couch and sit on it. Once the cat was finished, it prance up to me fast. While doing this, I snorted and said, "Smug, sassy cat." I mummble to myself happily. As the cat jumped onto the couch, walked over to me and played onto my lap, and fell asleep.

I tiredly, but gently started petting it to relax. Strangely, I don't feel guilty or..depressed, defeated, terrible, mad. I started to fall asleep, I yawned and finally let sleep take me.

5 weeks later,

I hurriedly walked around, as of figuring out my cat was a female, after some trust, but also figured out, that it had cancer, I assumed it would've only been an minor injury from the fall, from the little limping, but after collapsing from, pain or exhaustetion or SOMETHING! I checked the cat, and I then checked and saw it said she was slowly dying, I caved. My only friend was DYING ON ME! I DIDN'T SURVIVE JUST TO BE LEFT BEHIND AGAIN.

I was so mad, so angry, so tired at everything that I accidentally shortcutted to waterfall, and just started pacing, I then sat down.

I started remembering everything that me and Alphine I did together, When I was having a panic attacks, When I was raging, when my friend was tired, ans hungry, when I found a feather, tied it to a stick and played, the times, all of them.

I can't fix them, I have nothing TO FIX them, I started to get more into my thoughts of not saving them, I grabbed my arm, and started squeezing so tight that my bone began to break, and blood started spilling, "Maybe this is what I deserve, I killed everyone, I HURT EVERYONE, and when I stsrt to finally breathe, they go and LEAVE ME." I said angrily, not caring or noticing the the self inflicted harm.

The world's around started spinning, "What am I going to do? Is this what I deserve? Am I going to Die next? Why is Alph dying, they don't deserve that." I started rambling, quietly not noticing a certain cat, coming up to me with another one.

Tears pricking my eyes, and me shaking, mumbling I flinched pretty hard when I felt something soft start to nuzzle me, and pick my arm, I looked over, the tears pooling my eyesockets, and see a faint image of Alphine and another smaller cat next to them.

I started to cry silently, after a little while, remembering and crying I tiredly looked at the heaving, barely standing cat, that nuged the other towards me, it was a kitten, one with white splotches all over, and has a lighter shade of black fur, but I do see the same eyes, that I see on Alphine..after some petting the new cat I looked over to see Alphine not there...

I looked back down at the younger cat, mewing every fee seconds, looking around, I sigh and pick up the cat and Shortcut home, and place the cat down on the ground and shortcut to my room and cry.