he acted different today, i wanted him
he didn't seem to want me though
"what's wrong?" i had asked him
"you remind me of a river on a foggy day" he had said, lying in my bed staring at my ceiling, he was under the covers
i said nothing, he smiled
i climbed into the bed and sat next to him leaning against the back wall his head near my hip
"you can't see much in fog, can't see me" he said, i said nothing
"have you ever seen a crow fall from the sky?" he asked, i said nothing
"poison." he said
"i know what comes after you die." he told me
"can i show you?" he said turning and kissing the skin of my hip, he kept moving left until he got to somewhere special
"can you?" i breathed stroking his hair
he hummed in appreciation
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did i agree? he will show me what comes after you die
he wants to kill me
i don't doubt that he will
i also don't seem to mind
"i'll kill you" he said to me
he was lying with his head on my naked chest, he'd never been with me this long before
"i don't want to die." i told him
"have you ever seen a crow fly?" i asked him, he kissed my chest
