Couldn't Handle It

Chapter 2-Sofie

It started when I was 10. It didn't stop until I moved out. I was 16 when I moved out. 6 years of rape. And no one knew until I told Alex after 3 years and I couldn't say stop or else he would make it longer. Painfuller. It's horrible to have someone you've known your whole life have them do this to you. And it was only when he was drunk that he would do this to me. It was the worst pain ever. But I've had sex after that a lot. Because he's taught me everything so he can enjoy what he does. To me its horrible. But when I actually want this to happen. It's amazing. It's perfect. It's magical. Some people are jerks to me because I do this a lot. And because I'm the head cheerleader that I can get whatever I want when I want it. I do happen to like being a cheerleader. I like "dating" the quarter back. Mr. Blonde with the hot body and blue eyes. Just what everyone wants in a boyfriend. Although all he wants me for is sex. But hey I am kinda happy to give. Especially to him. And I also have the "loser of the school" who would be Alex. She's been my best friend for so long. She's the one who helped me through being raped. I personally thought she was going to find out someday but hey. If rather'd her not find out. Because. Who would want anyone to know you've been raped and had sex dozens of times? Not me.