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Dear Cedric

Elizabeth's POV:

I'm sorry for leading you on just to make some guy I liked jealous, and I'm sorry for making you change to a guy you aren't. I'm sorry for choosing Draco over you. I'm sorry for all those rude rumors I made about your Ex girlfriend Cho I'm also sorry for lying about smelling you in my Amortentia. I also apologize for kissing Draco while we were dating. I'm sorry for having the Weasley twins prank you for a week in 2nd year because I liked you. And I know there's more but lastly I'm sorry for letting you die.

I read my note Over and over again a couple tears dripping onto the paper but never once did I fully cry or sob. I was numb, I haven't been eating or talking as much and when I do it's usually a rude remark. And people haven't really noticed because that's how I always was I always struggled with maintaining what my mother calls a "adequate figure" which meaning I was always slim and petite and I never reached a certain size and if I did I would  be on months exercise and so to prevent that I would stop eating. And Cedric was the only one in 2nd year that noticed not even My best friend Astoria knew. Though I was cruel to him he showed me what if felt like to be loved even if I did feel empty. He would always sneak me extra food and help me eat it, or even bring me muggle food when able.
He was perfect any girl would kill to be with him he was charming and respectful and kind.
And now he's gone.
"Miss Darcy, I'd like you to speak at Cedric's service held tonight" Dumbledore asks and I shake my head "Sir trust me I don't deserve too find someone else someone who loved him" I say on the verge of tears but I hold them back.
"He wanted you too"

The service went well I sat in the back with the rest of the Slytherins Astoria to my side making sure I was alright and Enzo in front of me Casually asking me if I'm alright but the person I wanted to be there the most was no where to be found.

"Where's Malfoy?" I ask Astoria as we walk to the common room
"In his dorm with Theo why?" She questions
"Let's get Enzo and Mattheo and Pansy and have some fun" I say quietly excited
"Like get drunk??" She asks and I nod eagerly
"Whatever helps you cope"

I sneak my bottle of fire-whisky to the boys dorm.
"Are you sure you want to drink right now?" Draco questions worryingly
"If I wasn't I wouldn't be doing it" I roll my eyes at him.
He sucks he's breath before taking a swig
"Let's dance I'm bored" I groan standing up and turning on music on Blaise's music player.
They all look at me in confusion but Mattheo stands up and joins me
"When did she become so fun" he chuckles grabbing my hand to spin me around that's when my head starts spinning  and I tumble but Draco catches me.
"Shit, Elizabeth are you okay?" He ask picking me up and sitting me on his bed
"Yeah I need some air" I say panting
"Everyone leave my room give us some room" Draco commands and everyone looks at each other leaves Astoria gives me a small hug and Enzo hugs me as well kissing my head.
"Goodnight" he says and I say it back.
And when everyone leaves Draco holds me as I let the tears flow and honestly I don't know what I'm crying about cedric or being drunk or feeling guilty but everything comes out.
"It's okay I've got you" he cooed in my ear and I continue my sobbing until my sobbing turns into soft snoring.
And Draco helped me change into my pajamas and cleaned me up for night before laying me beside him in bed and in that very moment I knew I did love him though his flaws no one has ever taken care of me like this before.