Hidden Love-Tom Kaulitz

Lucky

I woke up the next morning in pain.  I got up and walked over to my mirror, staring at my reflection.  There were bruises and cuts all over my body, including the ones I gave myself on my arms.  *Sigh*  I'm tired.  Mentally.  Who cares.  I have better things to worry about. 

I put on a long sleeve shirt and jeans and grabbed my purse.  I threw on my converse and ran down the stairs.  "Tom are you coming with?!"  ...  No response.  He's probably still asleep.  What if he killed himself?  What if he's hanging right now?  What if he's OD?  Stop.  He's fine.

The voice in my head kept nagging me as I left the house and hopped on my bike.  Before I left, I left Tom a message that I hoped he would answer.

I started my bike and was off.  I headed towards the hospital and made it in about ten minutes.  I parked and walked up to the front desk.  "Hi I'm looking for Bill Kaulitz."  The lady began typing on her computer.  "I'm sorry miss but he was released early and is already at the physcward.

"Oh...okay, thanks."  "We could send a message and tell him you say hi."  I nodded.  "That'd be great, thanks."  "What's your name?"  "Uh, Alliyah."  She nodded.  We finished up and I left.  With shaking hands, I pulled out my phone, hoping to see that Tom had answered.

I had a message, but it wasn't from Tom.  It was from Lin.  What does she want?  I debated opening the message for a few minutes before sucking it up and clicking on it. "Can we talk?"  I wanted to say no, but for some reason I said yes.  "Meet at 178 murfflshord street." 

*Sigh*  I got on my bike and headed for home.  After about fifteen minutes I finally made it.  I hopped off, shaking.  I practically ran inside.  The door swung open and I heard a yelp.

"Jeez Ali, you scared me."  I sighed.  I shut the door and set my stuff down before walking up to Tom and hugging him.  He was warm and smelled like whiskey.  I snuggled my head against his chest.  "You okay love?"  I was shaking.  "Yeah, I'm okay.  I'm alright..."  He held me tightly, pulling me closer to him.

He placed a kiss on the top of my head and rested his head on mine.  "I need to go meet Lin..."  Tom pulled away, a confused and shocked look on his face.  "Why?"  "She texted me asking if I'd meet her.  I don't really want to but for some reason I said yes."  He nodded.  "Do you want me to come with you?  Like, I can trail behind you on my bike while you go meet her."  I thought for a moment.

I shook my head.  "It's alright, but thanks."  I smiled at him, and he smiled back.

—Tom's POV—

I smiled back, knowing damn well that I was gonna follow her once she left.  "I'm gonna go upstairs and take a quick nap."  She gave me a knowing look.  I smiled.  "I'm coming with you."  She smiled and we laughed as we ran upstairs to her room.  I followed her and shut the door behind us. 

I grabbed her waist from behind and spun her around to face me.  Her silky hair was in her face, a glisten in her eyes that I was familiar with.  She smelled like strawberries and sugar.  My favorite smell, but only when it came from her.

I'm so in love with this girl.  I stared into her eyes, the eyes I always got lost in.  I leaned down and kissed her, our lips colliding.  My tongue found its way into her mouth. 

I moved foward, pushing her to the bed. She fell on her back, our lips still in contact.  My hands roamed her body, her skin smooth and soft.  My fingers began to play with the hem of her shirt, ready to lift it up.  I felt her hands stop mine.

She looked worried, scared.  "I-I'm sorry...I'm not ready."  I immediately let go of her shirt.  My hand touched her face, moving her hair behind her ear.

"It's okay princess, I'll wait.  I'll wait as long as I need to."  I placed a small kiss on her lips and laid down next to her. 

I grabbed her by her waist and pulled her close to me, our bodies close together.  She snuggled her head in my chest as I held her protectively.  Her breathing was soft and steady.  I watched her chest rise and fall.  It was satisfying.

Aliyah was such an amazing girl.  I don't know why she likes me.  I'm totally messed up, but all I know is that I'm truly a lucky man.