ever wonder what if i and sangwoo had a good ending? haha why would you all even think about us huh? so im gonna write a good ending to us in this diary entry
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You all must have read killing stalking? and are prolly here for some more? hahaha tsk tsk ............. ......... ....
But did u ever wonder if sangwoo.....he really liked me or no? prolly yes most you would have and i do too when officer sunbae said i am never going to see sangwoo it was as if my heart skipped a few beats i couldn't remember his face and it was horrific as for now what if he never would've got into a fight with sunbae what if chief wouldn't have come to us and what if sangwoo didn't think of me as a trash......might be foolish but the way he used to pat or praise or even look at me, It-.....It felt so good but now i can't even remember his face. i wasn't able to give him the gift i brought i seriously am of no use. You remember how he called me "bumi" it felt so nice cuz he was the first ever person to give me a nickname.......but now it doesn't-.......doesn't matters cuz he-...he isn't here to call me his bumi. He took me to the amusement park It felt so good for the first time but do you remember the picture- we took there? i still don't know if he threw it or it just burned when the blast occurred..........i wanna remember sangwoo's face my sangwoo's MY BABE'S FACE. It feels so bad and lonely here eventhough he hurt me a lil i was happy with him even he was going to kill me i was happy with him he made me feel loved even if he was just faking it i miss it a lot. the blush on his cheek when he was drunk.......even though i was a bit confused about the part when he called me "mom". I have my classmate here she always tries to make me feel good nobody can replace sangwoo no matter what. i've been depressed since childhood but this time its eating me up how if that fucking grandma wouldn't had killed sangwoo that day he would've been with me i am so stupid and useless as sangwoo said..........she said-.......that he was calling out for someone named "bum" which is me Only if i wouldn't had being a coward that day i might have met sangwoo i miss him so very much. Wanna know what i gor for us? the....matching swan rings. yeah! i wanted us to be together forever swan might sound childish to you right? But there is a reason behind...it is said swans are very loyal towards each other haha yeah and the fact that if one of em dies the other kills itself or stays alone for the rest of their life I wanted sangwoo to just stay by my side and be mine for eternity but hes not here anymore...........
