by the way + angela giarratana

two.

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after the talk i had with spencer the night before, i was nervous to head to work. i was nervous to see angela. i'll admit it now, i do have a crush on her, but i don't think i'm ready for another relationship right now. therefore i'm going to try and ignore the feelings for her while at work, keep it professional or whatever.

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on the drive to work, i think about ways to not think about my feelings towards the short brunette, and the only way i can imagine it working is to avoid the girl. at all costs.

though as the day goes on, it's proving to be difficult to not interact with angela, and others are starting to notice this, when my phone chimes with a text from chanse;

chanse 🦕

girl why're you avoiding ang??
she knows you're doing it
don't ignore me

ugh this sucks to admit but i like her
but i don't want anything right now, i'm not ready for another relationship rn

i fear you need to tell her this
you're going to lose a friend if you don't

fine i'll tell her if you get court and amanda off of my back

i got your back julien, but for the love of god please tell ang

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i set my phone back onto my desk with a sigh, shayne turns his attention away from his computer to glance at me.

"you okay? you seem kind of off today." he asked softly so those around us couldn't hear.

"i've been trying to avoid angela today...i was trying to avoid my feelings and now i'm upsetting her. i feel bad and now i'm going to admit to her why i was avoiding her which will mean that i'll have to tell her that i like her." i blew air sharply out of nose in distress.

"wow, okay...i mean i'm sure ang will understand you. why are you so scared of admitting your feelings?"

i shrug, "i guess it's because of my last relationship. or it's the nagging feeling of my parents not fully supporting me. i don't know, it's all hitting me at once and i can't take it anymore."

"okay, so start with talking with angela, tell her exactly how you feel. she's really good at listening. then if that's still bothering you, i'm sure court wouldn't mind chatting about it with you." shayne rested a hand on my shoulder, giving it a gentle squeeze.

i sighed standing up from my desk. i dragged my feet as i walked to the kitchen, knowing that's where angela was going to meet me. i found her leaning against the island with a cup of coffee in her hands. she was staring solemnly into her cup.

"hey, angela can we talk?" i ask rubbing my neck out of awkwardness of the situation.

she glanced up, setting her cup beside her on the counter. "what's up?"

"i'm sure you know why i'm here to talk. but uh fuck. this is really hard for me okay?" i run a hand down my face, "i've been avoiding you because i have a crush on you, and i've had bad relationships in the past and my parents don't fully support me. so i find it really hard to act on my feelings. and with courtney and amanda playing matchmaker it's starting to stress me out, hence the fact i've been trying be avoidant. i never meant for this to hurt you, angela."

"first off, i appreciate you telling me this. i know it isn't easy to tell others how you're feeling. secondly i understand where you're coming from and to be honest i also have a crush on you. not be cliche but ever since i saw you, i couldn't take my eyes off of you." she pinched the bridge of her nose, "but i respect you of course, i won't try anything until you tell me your ready, okay."

"ugh i'm so glad this is over, ready for lunch ?" i ask, throwing my arm over shoulder as we leave the kitchen heading to the staff tables to join our friends for lunch.

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on the way home, spencer could tell i wasn't feeling up to talking like we normally would. he turned up the radio, kaleidoscope by chappell roan quietly floats through the car. the lyrics it close to the heart, as i look out the passenger window blinking and swallowing hard to get rid of the tears that were starting to form.

once i was safely in bedroom for the night, my phone chimed on the bedside table, with a message from angela;

angela 🎸

hey...you didn't actually hurt my feeling btw
but i do accept your apology

good, i'll buy you coffee tomorrow?

that's sweet of you, on my desk would be perfect 👀
have a goodnight julien

you too ang

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ry speaks!

so so sorry it took me so long to finish writing and publish this! i have no excuses, i will be working on getting up more chapters

thanks for reading :)