Chittiyan.

Longing. For you.

(5 January, 1952.)

To,
My heart.

Greetings, my dearest. I hope you are in good health and spirit. I have been missing you with great ardour, like the lifeless soil misses the downpour, for I'm nothing but lifeless without you. Just as the sky is without its stars and moon, as you may already know, you have always been my moon and stars. My whole universe.

You are the reason my heart used to beat but now my heart has gone away with you, and now what all has remained is only my intense yearning and desire to reunite with my heart, my love, my Ishan, with you, my dearest. Without you my days are empty, nights lost and sleepless. All I do every moment is nothing but think of you, counting the seconds I will be able to see you again and feel alive, wondering if you are thinking of me as well, as much as I am. I pray you are.

I, everyday, recall the moments we were together, how joyous my soul used to be, no sorrow, no pain ever mattered, what mattered was just us and us. Now my soul is not complete, for my soulmate is not with me. My heart and flesh feels cold since the moment I have been deprived of your warmth, your touch, even my hands ache with longing because they do not have yours to hold onto anymore. It feels as if my heart has forgotten to beat, my lips have forgotten how to smile. The only thing my gaze desires is to be able to see you again, feel you close to my heart and if possible, never let you go, simply keep you close to me for more than an eternity. My heart constantly feels the ache of our separation, I long to be with you again with every ounce of hope in my being.

May we see each other before long and the sunsets that have dulled without your presence again feels as vibrant as before. May my cold and empty heart again experience your warm, sun-like presence shortly. Please, write back soon, I will be waiting, with every fiber of my being.

With love,
Yours, eternally,
Shubman.

-

Hello, my favourite people, look who's here. I was not really going to write this, considering I have more things to write but this silly little idea made me too excited and I couldn't resist.

This is exactly going to be the title, just letters. I heard it's called something like epistolary novel. Honestly not as easy as I thought, it's freaking difficult. This is not what I usually write, but it's going to be typical me, sappy, sappy and sappy. I'm going to unleash my hopeless romantic side, I might be a single-pringle but I do know a thing or two about romance.

At first I was thinking to make this the letters of destined hearts' past life Ishan and Shubman but everyone who have read that know how that ends. I'm not really in the mood to write sad shit, I'm saving all the angst for something else. So this is a different piece all together.

So what do you think? Like the idea or it's just meh?

Bye-bye.
Love ya 💖💌