Have one eye open

6| SISTER.2

I had so much school stuff and also my tennis practise every day because of the tryouts so im only getting started on this chapter now- dont hate me..

Coco (NYC)

I still couldn't belive that this would be so easy. My family had taken me back in a matter of seconds. My dad after hearing my story belived me, my mother recognized me by just looking at me, and kenzo who was almost like my twin he had just known. My other brothers maybe needed some explanacion but after me repeating everything that I said to Antonio they were convinced of my indentety.

I was in my mothers arms for what felt like hours, she was histerical for most of this time yet it didn't bother me one bit- I was thankfull, that someone would cry over me.. me. 

That was the feeling of being loved?

Then I would miss it deaply.

I was able to somehow explain everything to my family, Denzel had called the family doctor to confirm my blood relations- it wasn't from they're intencion but i wanted them to be sure, to not have doubts. Most were reluctant but kenzo, who hadn't changed one bit had convinced them, he told some psyhological bullshit and they belived-of course.

While telling them my story, my brothers would interrupt me all the fucking time, mum was only crying and dad hearing it before was helding her in his arms. 

Denzel was distraught but seemed calm, Ambrose would walk around the room sreaming profanities and just being very loud with his threats towards the people behind my kidnaping, Zee was fuming in rage, knowing what I had been through at such a young age, I think he blamed himself.. He was the last person that I seen before, you know... Ajax had already his laptop on the table and he would inquire everyting that I had known about the organisation. And kezno, he would just talk to me. I think that he already realized what happened to me. I knew that my emocions werent showing- which was one of the signs of my indifrence. I was capable of showing some to my mother, but mostly it was only to suth her, not myself.

So as much as i tried to hide my inner self, my inner killer. It was easier said than done. This side of me was my whole self, I wasn't hiding my emocions, they just weren't present, my indifrence my lack of any passion was what I was created for. It was me, just simple me who was tring not to show the monster wihin me. 

My family... Would they be scared of me? Of what I had done to survive? Of the fact that I was lacking human expresions to inhumane experiences?

Scared... This was a feeling, something deep stired inside of me.

NO.

I DO NOT FEEL, THINK OR DO WIHOUT THE PREMISION.

No no no no no.

I couldn't go down this road.

It was not in the plan. Stick to the plan.

It was harder then ever now with Kenzo seing everyting that was going on in me...

He didn't see the enterity of what was hapening but he seen some and it wasn't good. I knew he would understand most but some of it was out of his reach. He was percing me, looking right through me but not in the places that I didn't want him to go. It was my response to his tries.

We walked together to the entrance. I had told my family how they wouldn't me safe hear with me and some other lies which hopefully would keep them safe.

I had finished my plan and it was time to go back.

Mum was presistent on me staing, as the others yet I stood my ground. 

Not to be decived...

I requested for kenzo to walk me to the door because I knew that he wanted to tell me something.

We were outiside already, the car was prepared for me and a guard was standing beside it, we walked in silence, Kenzo tring to make me... doubtfull? It was hard to read him.

We stoped in front of the car and kenzo finnaly opened his mouth. And then he closed it. Was Kenzo wavering? That wasn't what I expected.

After a while he finally regained his usual confidance and said.

-I can't read you. Its harder then we were kids yet now its something else. Now I know that you don't want me to find out, now you are hiding. I can see that the past ten years were a nightmere for you, that now you are waking up from, but it still has the hold on you, you will never forget it but you have to let it go.... Just let it go sister...- He said in hardest tone that I ever heard of him, it was also almost pleading.. As I knew he read of me, even more then I had hoped, he knew more but he shared so little as always.

Good old Kenzo.

Right after that he walked away only sparing me a slight nod of his head, I only noded in responce but then while I was hoping in to the massive SUV I wanted to respond. Kenzo stopped mid stairs and just stared at me. - I will let it go brother, but only when the guilty will pay.- I say that closing the door. Through the tinted window I see him deep in thoughts. I know he knows what I meant, and he knew it before I said it but he seems to proces it like the most valuable sentence in the world. 

The driver drives off and before I know it we are already outiside of the property. I know that he will tell them where I'll get off so my plan is to get off as soon as posible, but also so he won't be suspicious.

They are my family but for me to protect them I have to make them think that this is more unchalenging then it is in acuality. This is my battle, and no one will fight it for me.

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So again it is the continuacion of the privious chapter, I had written it on my brake in school so its not very good but I will be editing it in the future...

Good day.