Dear diary

Dear Diary, am I hopeless?

For clarification I'm a teenage girl she/they pronouns and omni. I won't go beyond that for obvious reasons

Dear diary I have a crush on a boy that's asexual. I've had a crush on him since third quarter of last school year and talked with him all summer now it's September of a new school year and I still can't stop thinking about him.

We've become friends and I do really value his friendship, because romance aside he's a wonderful person to be around. But honestly he could light up a room with his smile and completely change my mood with his laugh. I know this isn't going anywhere and I wont tell him for the sake of our friendship.

Every time I talk to a friend about it, it's M or K. M says I should date him nearly always forgetting his being asexual. And K says that they'll slap me if I start yapping about him one more time. They have a partner but they say it's different when they talk about their partner because in their case the two of them are actually together.
I respect the boy I'm crushing on as a person because he's more than only being the boy I like, but I can't help but feel like I'm disrespecting him by liking him as more than a friend at all. I know he's ace but I can't just magically make my feelings go away not when we have two classes together back to back, not when he sits next to me in one and behind me in the next. I really really love him but I know that's all it'll be, I like him and he's happily oblivious. Am I really this hopeless?