The Unwanted Love

Why me?

I was making notes for my subjects when something suddenly popped up in my mind ''How did HE get my number? Strange! How did I forget asking him about this? I'll ask him tomorrow at school. Let me make my notes now.'' I said to myself

Next day, when I entered the classroom, I didn't see him, probably he was absent, our teacher came and we started noting down the things she was writing on the board, when that weird boy came running while wearing that same black colored mask which he was wearing when he first came to this class. He asked ''may I come in, mam?'' Our teacher asked him ''Why are you so late? keep standing outside'' The weird boy aka Trikshan said ''Sorry mam, but there was some personal issues'' Mam said in a harsh tone ''Oh, y'all always have this issue, and that issue!! So, issues like what, a cyclone started, you wanted to say that, right?!'' He tried to explain his reasons clearly again and again, but our mam is mam...! She won't let anyone come inside the class when they're late, she stuck to her words ''Keep standing outside'' I kinda felt sorry for Trikshan, but what to do? If I was miss's favorite student like those teacher's pets, I would at least try to make mam understand, but who'll listen to me? I'm just a middle bencher with a mouth like bitter gourd which doesn't even leaves teachers.

After the first period, mam exited the classroom and Trikshan entered, because of his mask I couldn't see his whole face, but his eyes tell that he is very disheartened, maybe because, he has never experienced being late in his previous school? Or maybe he had a very serious problem for which he was late?

He sat beside me, as instructed by our class teacher, I wanted to ask him about the number thing, but I realized this isn't the correct time to ask him, so I asked him about why he was late instead. He said in that same deep voice, but this time, deeper and sadder, ''My parents were fighting'' He always replied in short sentences, so I asked him again ''I know this is a very personal question, but why do they fight?'' he replied, ''Actually they aren't my real parents, the woman I call ''mother'' now is my Real Mother's sister, my birth givers died in an accident when I was 4, and I don't remember anything else, you know, they always fight, always! I'm sick and tired because of them!'' I felt the sadness in his eyes and voice, I tried to console him by putting one of my hands in his back, but he suddenly said in a hoarse voice while putting down my hand ''No need'' I got confused, but I tried to think positively about him, maybe he felt Aliha watching us?

In the break time, I asked him casually ''Are you okay now? Can I ask you something?'' He replied while showing a thumbs up ''Yeah, yeah, I'm okay, as always, and yes, ask Diva'' The way he said my name! It sounded heavenly, I don't know why, I really don't know, don't know anything! When I was in my own world thinking about the way he said my voice in that lovely deep voice he shook me by my shoulders and said ''Ask'' I got back to the reality and replied ''yes, yes, so how did you get my number last day?'' He replied while laughing ''Of course, I got your number from our class group, you idiot!'' Seeing him laugh for the first time, I also laughed thinking what a fool I'm! But why did he message me only? There were so many students in that group! Again, when I was just going to visit my own world, I pinched myself intentionally and whispered to myself ''Oh lord! I'm such a big overthinker! It's so obvious that he'll message me only as he is new here and also my bench mate!'' Today, I had my lunch with him in that hall where there were no one, as Marian was absent. I asked him while eating ''Why do you always take me to this hall?'' He said smiling a bit ''I trust you, and nobody else, that's the reason why I only put down my mask in front of you and only in this hall'' I again got confused by his words but after few minutes I understood what he meant, I hit my forehead and thought ''How foolish I'm, of course people needs to pull down their mask while eating!!!'' But his words ''I trust you, and nobody else'' made me smile like an idiot, I really don't know why...and why did he trust me only? Why me? I thought.