CRYPTIC FATE

3.

"I'm sorry Lily. It seems like your mother is not available in social media. It's quite hard to find anything about her but I have found quite information about her when I look into your aunt's social media  account ." Zoro informed 

"It's okay Zoro. And thank you for your help. E-mail whatever you found about mama."

"I will, take care four eyes."

I tried hard not to interact with anyone in the house. My plan is to hide in my room and dig more info about Mama. But my plan got ruin when I stepped into the house. 

"Oh, look oppa Lily is here. Hey we were looking for you." Lisa pointed out

"Shouldn’t we invite Lily too?" one of Lisa's minor asked. 

"Oh please!!! Just look at her. Her fatass gonna take half of the club." Lisa snicker. My brothers and Lisa's minors laugh like they heard best joke ever. 

I look down fisting my cloth. My face is covered by my hair.  I don’t want to cry infront of them. I gulp down the lump in my throat. 

"That nerd will ruin our image." Jimin comment 

"Yah, we have a reputation to maintain. Let's go now guys." Jin said 

Years and years I thought I'm used to this but it hurts so much. Each words from them hurts no actually burns my heart. I really want to die. 

"Stay in the house. Mom and dad is on a business trip. " Jungkook ordered and I nodded. 

"Hey sis look doesn’t this dress look fabulous on me? I look sexy right?" Lisa asked happily showing her outfit. 

She indeed look very very good. She is blessed with runway model like figure. So she fit into any dress. She wore a black dress that hug her curves perfectly. It's a shoulder off dress with a deep V cut showing her cleavage. And it barely covered her ass. Her hair and makeup is perfect. She definitely gonna be the center of attention. 

"You look good Lisa. " I answer. I'm in no position to overlook them and walk off. No matter how much I despair it I have to obey them. 

"Of course I do. Yoongi oppa won't be able to resist me tonight hehe. You know what if you would loss few pounds and look like a normal person instead of a fat cow we might let you join us. Whatsoever, just get lost from here looking at you make my head hurt." 

"What's wrong?" Yoongi asked 

"Nothing." 

He sigh. 

"Yoongi I'm tired today. I can't study with you today."

"Okay."

'Can't he read me like I do? Can't you comfort me just once?'

I wanted to say this but I couldn’t. I came back home straight from school I don’t left energy for anything. 

I cannot help but to feel extreme fear of losing him. I know Lisa like him, she told me yesterday. She always had an eye for him. And she is everything any guy would want. Seducing Yoongi with her figure and beauty is something Lisa might do.  I cried myself to sleep yesterday not just hurt by Lisa's words also by Yoongi's behaviour. I have read countless romance stories. People always feel special whenever they're with their partners. 

But I feel pathetic beside him. 

I am just so done with this life. Is it a crime to be fat? Don't I deserve love or respect just because I do not fit into their social standers?