Writing Out Lies

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝙾𝚗𝚎

Normal day again, what's new? Well for one, I'm a 19 year old boy, in college, and yet I'm working at a coffee shop. I don't know what I'm truly interested in, what I'm attracted to, all a blur. But all I know is a drag.

I look at the sheet in front of me, sitting humbly on my desk at the back, and the world blurs even more. Why does life seem like this? I decide to stop fooling around like an idiot and finally write my name on the top of the paper. Gyeul Won.

The most basic guy in class. Not even a two part name. And a standard Asian last name. What is there to look for in me? I'm a barista, A's, B's, and I have had C's, and I have light brown hair and eyes. Seriously basic.

There's nothing in me to look for. I don't know why people don't just give up on me. I'm not really worth it, I can barely handle my own life.

𝑶𝒌𝒂𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒐 𝒇𝒂𝒓 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒊𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒘𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒔 𝒐𝒓 𝒆𝒙𝒄𝒊𝒕𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒊𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆. 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝟓𝒕𝒉 𝒗𝒊𝒆𝒘, 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒌 𝒚𝒐𝒖! 𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒆 𝒂 𝑩𝑳, 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒄𝒉 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒃𝒐𝒚 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝒔𝒐 𝒊𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆𝒏'𝒕 𝒂 𝒔𝒖𝒑𝒑𝒐𝒓𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒈𝒂𝒚𝒔, 𝑰'𝒎 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚, 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒔𝒏'𝒕 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒓 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒆𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚 𝒊𝒕 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆, 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒌 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒖𝒑𝒑𝒐𝒓𝒕 𝒎𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒚 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒂 𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒖𝒍𝒂𝒓 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒈𝒆 𝒃𝒐𝒚, 𝒉𝒆𝒉.

-𝚙𝚜, 𝚠𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚂𝚝𝚎𝚙𝚑, 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚊𝚕 𝚠𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚌𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚒𝚜 𝚌𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚢 𝚝𝚛𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚊𝚌𝚝 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚏𝚊𝚒𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚊𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚘𝚗𝚎.