I don't believe in God, but I believe that you're my savior
"Nika?" She lifted her head from my chest, a small smile on her lips.
"Yeah?"
"I love you," Her smile grew. I wanted nothing more than to be with her for as long as I possible could. I felt...happier, more myself. She made me, me.
"I love you too, y/n," She leaned in, placing a soft kiss to my lips. Her hand finding my cheek, burning and flushed red.
"I've never been so happy in my life. You make me feel like there's a reason to live," I spoke, her face dropping. Her forehead resting on mine.
"Bab-" I cut her off, "No, I mean it," I pull my face away from hers. "You're everything to me, I don't think I can lose you."
She blurted out something I hadn't expected, "I can't be."
"Why not? You already are, you mean so much to me," She started to get up, wanting to leave.
"My parents, they'd...they wouldn't approve," She paused, "But, God, do I love you more than my own life."
"It's not up to them, we make our own decisions," She sighed.
"I can't lose my parents, y/n," She moved toward me, her hands finding my waist, "But, I don't wanna lose you either."
"Do we just not tell them?"
Her face went through every emotion, almost as if she was going through every possible outcome. "As long as we keep it between us."
I was willing to do anything, anything to keep the woman that seems to save my life everyday by just being here. I shook my head, agreeing. Nika pulled me into a hug, her face cuddled into the crook of my neck. My hands found her back, rubbing slightly.
"I'll do anything for you, Niks," Instead of a word from the girl, she placed small kisses on my neck.
And when we're getting dirty, I forget all that is wrong
Our bodies intertwined, skin too skin, I almost forgot that the world would never know she was mine. The way we made each other feel, every word shared between us, it was only ever going to be between us.
"That," Nika says, her breaths becoming even, "That makes me feel like we're supposed to be together."
"Why?"
"Nahiem wouldn't have ever thought about me...you did. That's all you think about, no matter the case. Your better than any person on this planet, y/n," Her words sending chills through me, my cheeks flushing red.
"Nik-" She cut me off, "What if I was to tell my parents? Convince them we're supposed to be together. That you've been the only person to make me feel like...I care, like I matter. Y/n, if I had to come out, it would only ever be for you. Losing them would me nothing compared to losing you."
I sat there, words not wanting to escape my mouth, "Nika, you can't throw your whole family away for me."
"I will. Who knows, they might not hate that fact I found someone that makes me feel so special."
"Nika."
"I'm going to Croatia next week."
Dumbfounded again, I sat there, trying to form words, "When did you plan this?"
