Truth is

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Recap
The scene that was unfolding before me was very disturbing
"Dad", I said looking at him

(Hoova/Jamir Father) (Jamir Sr "Jarvis - nicknamed after his uncle Jarvis")

(Hoova/Jamir Father) (Jamir Sr "Jarvis - nicknamed after his uncle Jarvis")

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"Son," he panicked and hid his face.
The scene was just so unreal
All the stacks of money, the drugs , and guns.
Seeing him with this money counter halfway through the last stack stunned me.
I was lost and hurt. The person I looked up to was all a lie.

"I can explain son," he said reaching his hand out to me. But I just stared at it and look at him. This caused us to have a silent stare off until I broke the silence.
"How long ?," I questioned him
His face turned from his usual mug with a frown then to a puzzled look.
"Many years ... many,"he said putting his last stack in the money machine without breaking eye contact.
"All these years you had me fool just wow how about mom ?," I said with tears down my face.

"You honestly think your mother don't know about this shit", he laughed then got up and gave me a pat on the back.
Hearing that made my heart ache, imagine your parents being complete strangers basically. The lies and tales they were selling should be a crime.

I just stood there until he returned.
The tension in the room was thick.
"So when y'all was going on business trips was it really for business," I asked
"Business true indeed,"he smirked

"Don't act fucking clueless bro you know damn well if my pops the head nigga in charge then it was going to pass down to me " he continued
"And then you " he said while putting his finger deep in my chest.

"But you guys lied to me why couldn't y'all keep it a hunnid,"I yelled quietly.
"You think this shit is easy, you think we can just come up to you and say, hey son your whole life is a lie me and your mom drug lords be fucking foreal for once," he semi yelled
"Keep your voice down my grandparents sleeping,"I mugged him

"And since you want to know about this your mom was the main one who put me in the middle of this here," he said taking a seat staring at the ceiling
"I remember it like yesterday," he continued

FLASHBACK
JAMIR MOTHER " J MOM" "Jaslyn
JAMIR FATHER "J DAD " Jamir Sr.

This is when Jamir was only 1 years old.

"You need to stop working at lil ass 9-5 and tell your daddy to put you on some big boy shit I'm tired of living regular" she said popping and smacking on some gum.
"Baby this lil ass 9-5 got us a beautiful home , two cars , and we don't go hungry or anything so this is good" I responded to her
Then she covered my eyes.
"I thought maybe she had me a little gift "
Then she showed me two packages one of weed the other of cocaine.
This caused me to panic.

"Where the hell you get that from "
"Your uncle, Jarvis I told him you wanted to start pushing some weight" she said holding the packages each in one hand smirking at me.
"Well I don't so let's return"
I grabbed her, you, and the keys.
As I was driving to my uncle house.
Your mom was crying and acting a fool.
Then something in her made her grab the wheel crashing us into a pole by the grace of God we were all safe and well"

"Before the police could come your mom got you and left me alone with the drugs causing me to panic and leave the crime scene and after that I kept calling your mom to see where you guys were but no answers months went by and she never came back or even allowed me to see you until I got them packages off."

"That's why you're memory of me being around when you was young is little to nonexistent because I couldn't be around if i didn't provide your mom with the luxury and money." He said just staring there blankly.

"And I love you son and when I found out you was in the game it broke my heart that's why I tried to get you into all them extracurricular activities because in my mind you'll never have to go through the things I did but that's too late I failed".

"But over the years your mom love for money and luxury died down and her love for me grew stronger... I was loving your mom a hundred percent, but in reality I was buying her love."

"I always wanted us a big happy family without the drugs and dangerous, but life has other plans," he said with one tear rolling down his face.

"It's okay pops I never knew it was like this I'm sorry man," I said getting up to hug him
But he stopped me
"Get out the streets son it's not like the old days there's no rules to live by "
"Please for me I'll hate to bury another child,"he said full blown crying.
"Dad I know .. I know I miss him too ," I said crying as well.
"Mane i just wish I was there to save him and you ,"he said sobbing harder
"Yeah me too, " I said patting and rubbing his back

"Get up pops no time to cry and be sad God does everything for a reason right now is not the time to be crying we must celebrate his birthday is tomorrow." I explained

"Are y'all going to visit his grave ," I asked
"I think I'm going to go your mom still haven't accepted reality yet in her head he is still alive and well. That's her coping method she believe all of her deceased ones are still alive on vacation and they will return, but when she realize they are really gone she breaks down and repeats the whole entire thing,"he explained to me

"Dad I'm sorry for what I did "

"It's not your fault ", my dad got up and hugged me

And I just smirked a sense of victory
"Bad man,"i whispered very low.

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